popsicles and mud pies
WOW! I totally forgot about live journal. ever since myspace became the "new hottness" lol livejournal kinda got shifted down wind. yeah well its official:IM A FRIKIN LOSER! im sitting at home on a friday night because no one wants to do anything...with me that is. thanks guys. today has been a poopy day..i retoke my heart test and brought it up from a 63 to a 76...i really wanted an a or a b...ugh,..never fails, i fail. i guess i really do suck at life. i cant score a job..ive been on two interviews and i havent been called back for a job...i suck. i spend way too much money and i dont know where it goes. im just not responsible. i dont think ill ever grow up, and if i do ill be ashamed of myself. being a kid is the best thing in the world. today...i finger painted..and it reminded me of when i was little...and care free..and didnt have to worry about anything except for like what time Captian Planet came on, and if i was gonna make mud pies or play in a puddle. those were the days,..im sad to realise they have gone..you know what else sucks? growing apart from friends..its a bummer and when u realise its happening and there isnt much you can do, it sucks more. but ppl grow up..and thats a shame, cuz who said the old things werent good? i sure didnt. i was just fine and dandy with the old things. when i am older, and not all grown up, im gonna tell my kids to be carefree and never grow up..cuz its a scary thing. i mean, how cool would it be to be a 40 year old making mud pies and eating popsicles? priceless. i wish life came with a camera that u have forever, that u could just take a picture of a moment in time, and 20 years from then hit play and go back and do it again...maybe if we were all kids life would be easier...granted, there would be a lot of poopy diapers, but on the other hand, there would be lots of smiles and laughing and fun going on!!i remember one night, i just laid outside on the trampoline with my best friend, and we just looked at the stars and talked about what was gonna go on when we were older and all grown up,...now i want to go lay under the stars and talk about what it was like when we were younger...Best Friend, if you read this, and you know who you are, lets get a sheet some night, lay on the lawn, and look up at the stars again, and "wish i way wish i white" lol or on the tramp and do that again, like old times.Sorry we arent as close as before, it really upsets me, and its easier for me to write, then to say face to face, but i love you and i miss you!