why can't I breathe whenever i think about you
i am so glad that i finally realized everything was true...i think i always knew it, well i definitly always did.. i cant beleive that I likeed you so much that i was blinded by what was really going on...all your bullshit and sweet talking....it really messed me up....i tried to do everything i could to make ou happy and in that attempt i loved my self respect and sunk to a new low...
well im glad that someone told me straaightup ... everyone was telling me but just in a nice way.. thank goodness somoene finally told me it straight up ... even if at the time i was hurt.... i still am hurt by everything that hit me... but im so glad that i realized it now before school starts....or it woulda fuicked up my chances at going to a good university....trust me it wouldve...well i dont want to talk to you anymore....if you want to talk to me as a friend go right ahead but dont expect me to be super friendly for the beginning, although i doubt you'd care....anything i've ever done for you is done with and i don't care about what you do wiht yourself anymore...
to tell you the truth it's pathetic that i cared about you so much when you didnt get a fuck about me...its guys like you that make me not go out with nice guys like Gab.. and i hate you for it...you made me hate myself more than almost anyone else has done with an exceptiong of some family members... literally .. always thinking why isn't this ever gonna work? wtf is wrong with me? but i dont care....its sorta weird tho how i liked you so much for so long even though ive come to realize that i don't know you at all..you are too vain for my liking as well....well i guess thats it and ill be forced to see you around but i hope you have a great year...bc after it ill be gettin the fuck ouut of ottawa(hopefully) and everything will be perfect in university =D
and thnx meggy (sorry i had to) for makin me realize what a person he really is and that i dont need to waste my time on him., youre a good friend=)
xoxo me
you've made me hate myself--