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Omg i actually havn't been on this journal for ages.
Well i obviously went to camp. It was so good - i gained a boyfriend of whom richard helped me dump yesterday. He was really nice but i'm just not very good with the whole relationship thing. It was really hard to do because he is such a nice guy but there was just no chemistry and i just couldn't deal with the whole relationship shit.
Some thing really bad happened to nicola on camp. I don't know if she would want me writting about it on here so i am not going to but nic i want you to know that i have never felt so guilty before in my whole entire life. Also i want you to know how much we all care for you. You don't understand how we all were when you were in hospital. The rest of the ftx was good but everyone, litrally everyone was talking about you and thinking about you. There were so many stories about kidney stones and apendisitises it was really scary. I was so relieved when Cpt Crook told me that you wanted tim, kelly, jamie and i to come and see you in hospital. Kelly and i went to find sgt medows as soon as we were back from the feild and she told us how you were doing and we arranged the trip to come and see you.
Jamie went in first and we were all left at the entrance to the ward worrying about what condition you were going to be in. Jamie came out really upset and tim took his place as he was so shit scared of the hospital and then kelly and i followed. It was so emotional seeing you in that state and listening to to you tell us what was wrong with you. We came in at the end to say good bye but i really didn't want to leave you.
The following day we went to drayton manor. Kelly, Bayliss and i ran from the coach to try and find you in the billit. When you wern't there we were so worried that they still hadn't let you out or somthing so kelly, libby and i went running around the camp to try and find sgt medows to see what was happening. We found her out side the mess and we ran from there all the way to the sgt's mess. It was such a great feeling to ee you there with jamie and i felt so proud walking you back across the playing feilds, showing everyone how strong you are and that you will and can servive anything. It was lovely that so many people stopped us on the way back to see how you were doing and the same when we went up to the bbq. You managed yo keep your spirits up through out the whole night at the bbq and disco and everyone really admired you for that. Nicola i just want you to know that i and many othere people think that you are the most amazing person in the world and we all love you so much. So if the results from the hospital are bad, i want you not to worry. i know it will be upseting if they proove to be positive (or negetive im not sure which means the bad one!) but remember that there are always ways around it and that everyone will love you as much as we all ready do what ever happens.
Nicola is on holiday at the moment but returns wednesday morning and i can't wait to see her, you wouldn't think two weeks was a long time but i really miss you nic.
okay that was all a bit heavy! there is so much stuff i could write about but i'll leave it there.
quick summery bout what is going on at the moment though - I am working so much, litrally everyday and i am so exhasted and run down. I have all these weird cold/flu symptoms because i have just had no time to catch up. I am still knackered from camp! Every posible minute i am not at work i am seeing my mates because i hav'nt seen them for so long and blah blah blah. but i feel really bad because there are so many people i have promised to meet up with but havn't been able to because there just arn't enough hours in the day. These people are Bayliss, Keith, Kelly (though i slept round for her birthday on sunday and i might meet up with her on tuesday), bub, jodie everyone. I spent a bit of time with my ex but obviously not anymore and the rest of the time with rich. I am trying to see jaz before and after work most of the time but she seems to be rather busy recently.
Anyway that was more than a quick summery. Got work tomorrow, and sunday and monday so i'm off to bed. Nighty night!
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Well i obviously went to camp. It was so good - i gained a boyfriend of whom richard helped me dump yesterday. He was really nice but i'm just not very good with the whole relationship thing. It was really hard to do because he is such a nice guy but there was just no chemistry and i just couldn't deal with the whole relationship shit.
Some thing really bad happened to nicola on camp. I don't know if she would want me writting about it on here so i am not going to but nic i want you to know that i have never felt so guilty before in my whole entire life. Also i want you to know how much we all care for you. You don't understand how we all were when you were in hospital. The rest of the ftx was good but everyone, litrally everyone was talking about you and thinking about you. There were so many stories about kidney stones and apendisitises it was really scary. I was so relieved when Cpt Crook told me that you wanted tim, kelly, jamie and i to come and see you in hospital. Kelly and i went to find sgt medows as soon as we were back from the feild and she told us how you were doing and we arranged the trip to come and see you.
Jamie went in first and we were all left at the entrance to the ward worrying about what condition you were going to be in. Jamie came out really upset and tim took his place as he was so shit scared of the hospital and then kelly and i followed. It was so emotional seeing you in that state and listening to to you tell us what was wrong with you. We came in at the end to say good bye but i really didn't want to leave you.
The following day we went to drayton manor. Kelly, Bayliss and i ran from the coach to try and find you in the billit. When you wern't there we were so worried that they still hadn't let you out or somthing so kelly, libby and i went running around the camp to try and find sgt medows to see what was happening. We found her out side the mess and we ran from there all the way to the sgt's mess. It was such a great feeling to ee you there with jamie and i felt so proud walking you back across the playing feilds, showing everyone how strong you are and that you will and can servive anything. It was lovely that so many people stopped us on the way back to see how you were doing and the same when we went up to the bbq. You managed yo keep your spirits up through out the whole night at the bbq and disco and everyone really admired you for that. Nicola i just want you to know that i and many othere people think that you are the most amazing person in the world and we all love you so much. So if the results from the hospital are bad, i want you not to worry. i know it will be upseting if they proove to be positive (or negetive im not sure which means the bad one!) but remember that there are always ways around it and that everyone will love you as much as we all ready do what ever happens.
Nicola is on holiday at the moment but returns wednesday morning and i can't wait to see her, you wouldn't think two weeks was a long time but i really miss you nic.
okay that was all a bit heavy! there is so much stuff i could write about but i'll leave it there.
quick summery bout what is going on at the moment though - I am working so much, litrally everyday and i am so exhasted and run down. I have all these weird cold/flu symptoms because i have just had no time to catch up. I am still knackered from camp! Every posible minute i am not at work i am seeing my mates because i hav'nt seen them for so long and blah blah blah. but i feel really bad because there are so many people i have promised to meet up with but havn't been able to because there just arn't enough hours in the day. These people are Bayliss, Keith, Kelly (though i slept round for her birthday on sunday and i might meet up with her on tuesday), bub, jodie everyone. I spent a bit of time with my ex but obviously not anymore and the rest of the time with rich. I am trying to see jaz before and after work most of the time but she seems to be rather busy recently.
Anyway that was more than a quick summery. Got work tomorrow, and sunday and monday so i'm off to bed. Nighty night!
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