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I had such a great weekend. This week I just did not want to come home. I went to New Hampshire with Bob and a bunch of his friends. It was really cool because I got to meet new people. It is not often I meet people who are just doing the same shit that I do. They were all kids around my age just going to college and working. It was really cool to meet people who were in the same boat. The area we went to was beautiful, you could see the mountains just stepping out on to the porch. There was little streams all over, and as funny as it sounds, even though there was snow on the ground it was still warmer then Rhode Island. I had a wonderful time with Bob, I feel like the two of us are getting even closer. It was awesome that he invited me along with him. Though the only down fall of the trip was I got a 150$ speeding ticket. Because I was driving 70 in a 55. Though I thought that the speed limit was 65 like it is on the high way in RI. I am a dope. Sucks because my insurance is going to sky rocket. My dad is pretty pissed. Though I must say as great as this weekend was, the minute I got home everything went down hill pretty fast for both me and Bob. He had a pretty bad phone call. And then my dad was basically acting like a jerk to me. He just acts like he wants nothing to do with any more. He told my mom he is sick of being a dad. Kinda a pretty shitty thing to hear. And I am really worried that I might not be able to afford school any more. And I will never forgive my self if I dont finish going. Though I am getting a refund in the mail in a few days I was told today for my state grant. It is not much but every little bit helps. The bill is quite expensive. I think I will be able to make it. Though I was really worried last night about it. It is just going to be another very broke semester. I almost wonder if I should have my parents take me off insurance and stop driving for awhile. Also I might have to make a decision to let a part of my life go. It sucks but it is going to come to a point where I am going to have to choose something. I just do to much and there is not enough time in the day. I am not saying that I am going to yet. But it sucks that my closest friend that I thought would be understanding is not. Sometimes I think he only cares about himself. I know that is a terrible thing to say but it seems that way sometimes. I am so worn thin right now. There is only so much I can handle with work, school, band, karate, and paying for work. I just hope everything works out as planned. It sucks when you dont really have control of your life and have to worry about where you are going to live next month or if you are going to be able to afford continuing school. Sorry I know I am blabbing. I just need to vent a little. Though as much as I complain I have to say there is some really good things in my life that seem to smother the bad for the most part. I know we all have our shit. I am just trying to be strong through it. I look up to people like my boyfriend who handle situations so well. I wish I could be like that. Well I suppose I really should be doing math right now. Since I am in math class. But I have that taken care of. Barabra is going to do my math work, and I am going to write her Bob dylan report. lol