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I am pretty livid at the fact that I am going to spend my last night in Naples by myself. Yes, I can see how much everyone down here really misses me. You know, wtf? I might as well not come back to Naples or make every attempt I can at it. It doesn't seem to matter. Yes, I had one of the best and most fun nights of my life on New Year's Eve with Meggan. I love spending time with her. She is one of the reasons I want move back down. But for the life of me, I cannot figure out how that girl feels about me. At moments it feels as though we are more than friends could ever be. Then at other times ... I don't know. I am confused and, rawr. I don't know what to say or type. I can openly admit that I have a crush on Meggan, I have for a long time. Ugh, I don't know what to do. I do know that the most fun I do have is when I am around her. It felt good to start off the New Year dancing with her at the Castle. Ever will I remember that night.
...Am I destined to be alone? There are an insunumberable amount of questions I cannot answer and they are wearing me down. As much as I love reading and chatting online, I want to pry myself away from it all. All I want is to live, work, and love. And yet, those three simple things elude me. Even when I put forth all the effort to bring myself to those things, they still slip form my grasp.
Whatever, I am leaving tomorrow for the hole that is South Carolina for my pathetic excuse for an existence up there. I want my driver's license back so that I can live my life. So that I can work. So that I can go out and spend the time with those whom I love. Where the hell do I belong in this world?! I do not know my place... I do not know where I belong. And I rapidly grow tired of looking.I know my place isn't in South Carolina, and now I am doubting that it is in Naples. Maybe this is why my father turned to the open road. Did he feel the same as I at this age? I know not.
Argh!
-Drizzt
...Am I destined to be alone? There are an insunumberable amount of questions I cannot answer and they are wearing me down. As much as I love reading and chatting online, I want to pry myself away from it all. All I want is to live, work, and love. And yet, those three simple things elude me. Even when I put forth all the effort to bring myself to those things, they still slip form my grasp.
Whatever, I am leaving tomorrow for the hole that is South Carolina for my pathetic excuse for an existence up there. I want my driver's license back so that I can live my life. So that I can work. So that I can go out and spend the time with those whom I love. Where the hell do I belong in this world?! I do not know my place... I do not know where I belong. And I rapidly grow tired of looking.I know my place isn't in South Carolina, and now I am doubting that it is in Naples. Maybe this is why my father turned to the open road. Did he feel the same as I at this age? I know not.
Argh!
-Drizzt