Now thats the sound chris will make when you walk away with his hope.
So ive been inlove with the same girl for almost a year now.
i could end it there and that would seem like a good thing.
I was going through the highschool yearbook of last year and the theme was individuality all these quotes like.. Individuality is blah blah, i wanted to add one.. they never asked me what i thought it was.
Individuality is realizing eveyrone else is a character in YOUR story.
yah.
or not
I havent really left my house at all, and i kinda like it that way i wake up and go online then go to work than come home..then yah.. since living on my own i thought it would be great yay WOOHOO! PARTY YAH! im more depressed than ever.
devoting the past year of my life to make someone else happy has really made me weak. i dont feel like i have anyone and that im alone all the time. so i play video games. . i like my friends.. i like them alot.. i like myself also.. i just feel more unfullfilled everyday ive honestly never have felt this lonely before in my life. Ive been on this thing were im trying not to talk to alisa as much. and it was going well maybe twice a week or 3 times which isnt bad since we've talked every day and for the past year.. and the other day.. i felt horrible like crying all day and i called, she was to busy studying or something and i got really upset.."fuck you i never wanna talk to you again, i never wanna hear your voice again" something like that(yah im losing it)and theni called the next day saying im sorry.
i do that alot, i should stop. im getting over her, it's just i have noone else to talk to. it's going well i suppose, but this is the first time in my life ive ever believed that was something truely wrong with me, im not doing well. ive never been this sad, i dont excited over anything, i havent really smiled in a couple days and im just lost. i used to be seen as confident even cocky. now im the most insecure kid you'll ever meet.
-updated
-Chris
i could end it there and that would seem like a good thing.
I was going through the highschool yearbook of last year and the theme was individuality all these quotes like.. Individuality is blah blah, i wanted to add one.. they never asked me what i thought it was.
Individuality is realizing eveyrone else is a character in YOUR story.
yah.
or not
I havent really left my house at all, and i kinda like it that way i wake up and go online then go to work than come home..then yah.. since living on my own i thought it would be great yay WOOHOO! PARTY YAH! im more depressed than ever.
devoting the past year of my life to make someone else happy has really made me weak. i dont feel like i have anyone and that im alone all the time. so i play video games. . i like my friends.. i like them alot.. i like myself also.. i just feel more unfullfilled everyday ive honestly never have felt this lonely before in my life. Ive been on this thing were im trying not to talk to alisa as much. and it was going well maybe twice a week or 3 times which isnt bad since we've talked every day and for the past year.. and the other day.. i felt horrible like crying all day and i called, she was to busy studying or something and i got really upset.."fuck you i never wanna talk to you again, i never wanna hear your voice again" something like that(yah im losing it)and theni called the next day saying im sorry.
i do that alot, i should stop. im getting over her, it's just i have noone else to talk to. it's going well i suppose, but this is the first time in my life ive ever believed that was something truely wrong with me, im not doing well. ive never been this sad, i dont excited over anything, i havent really smiled in a couple days and im just lost. i used to be seen as confident even cocky. now im the most insecure kid you'll ever meet.
-updated
-Chris