....what doesn't kill me only makes me stronger.
Lord I am so damn frustrated! I hate being a part from my husband! We hate it hate it HATE IT. We belong together. We're perfect for each other and I can't enjoy him now.
Well, if you didn't know, Pascal didn't come back with me. We want to get his green card first while he works in Germany until he can come over. But this is just getting unbearable and its only been three weeks. This is the worse separation time ever. And I know I sound like a big baby but I want him really bad! And I don't necessarily mean in a sexual way even though that's a part of it. He's just such an awesome part of my life that I hate not being with him! It didn't hit me until today how much this is effecting me while it hit Pascal hard as soon as I left. The funny thing is that we were fine when the day arrived that I had to leave. We didn't cry or even feel sad when we were at the airport. We know that we're solid. But we became such an integral part of each other's lives during the last two months, especially since we're married now that its taking its toll on us. It just hurts so much not to be around each other. We're like too magnets pulling at each other from a distance but can't touch. God this hurts so much but I'd rather go through this pain of love than through the pain of not having anyone at all. I just need some sort of outlet and I hope school works since its starting tomorrow.
One of the few things that keeps me sane is the thought that Pascal and I were just meant to walk down this difficult road together and it will all be worth it in the end. I'm just blessed to have found my soulmate and what doesn't kill me only makes me stronger.
Oh well, here are three pictures of us from the wedding:
After I just came down the aisle in the church.
After our first dance. We messed up a few times and I kept slipping on my dress, but we had fun so we ended big with a kiss.
I swear I fixed the red eye.. oh well, but here's a picture of me as a Mrs. with my handmade wedding band!
Oh and did I tell you that Pascal wanted to take my name so now I'm just Mrs. Blanco? =:)
Well, if you didn't know, Pascal didn't come back with me. We want to get his green card first while he works in Germany until he can come over. But this is just getting unbearable and its only been three weeks. This is the worse separation time ever. And I know I sound like a big baby but I want him really bad! And I don't necessarily mean in a sexual way even though that's a part of it. He's just such an awesome part of my life that I hate not being with him! It didn't hit me until today how much this is effecting me while it hit Pascal hard as soon as I left. The funny thing is that we were fine when the day arrived that I had to leave. We didn't cry or even feel sad when we were at the airport. We know that we're solid. But we became such an integral part of each other's lives during the last two months, especially since we're married now that its taking its toll on us. It just hurts so much not to be around each other. We're like too magnets pulling at each other from a distance but can't touch. God this hurts so much but I'd rather go through this pain of love than through the pain of not having anyone at all. I just need some sort of outlet and I hope school works since its starting tomorrow.
One of the few things that keeps me sane is the thought that Pascal and I were just meant to walk down this difficult road together and it will all be worth it in the end. I'm just blessed to have found my soulmate and what doesn't kill me only makes me stronger.
Oh well, here are three pictures of us from the wedding:
After I just came down the aisle in the church.
After our first dance. We messed up a few times and I kept slipping on my dress, but we had fun so we ended big with a kiss.
I swear I fixed the red eye.. oh well, but here's a picture of me as a Mrs. with my handmade wedding band!
Oh and did I tell you that Pascal wanted to take my name so now I'm just Mrs. Blanco? =:)