Balance.
December 8th. That was the last date I posted anything on this blog. I guess that's me in a nutshell. I can get so inspired by a moment that I feel this drive to go and do something, but after a little while, the drive wears off. When that happens, I often feel like I still want to do it, but it's really hard to commit.
I think what I need is to strengthen my will and determination. I have to work harder to be the person that I want to be. I need to fight back the depression and all that comes with it, and get up and do something. This year I started working out at the gym where I work. I've been doing great for a while now, but lately I feel it's a real drag to have to go over there and work out. That sucks. I need to do it. Although I hate rutines, I still like to have them - contradictory, I know. So that is why, like I've said many times before, I need to get my life in order. And this time I'm gonna do it. Even if the drive wears of.
What I want at the moment, is to catch up to my homework this week since it's wintervacation. That way, it'll be easier to get back to school and keep up. I'm still getting top grades, but if this continues, I don't think I will anymore. Then, I want to work out regularly. It'll be a lot easier when the snow dissapears though, cause then I can jog outside. I also want to stop neglecting my books. I bought more than twenty new books this winter, and I've read two of them. Actually, I'm reading the second now. And of course, I want to spend time with Lars and my friends. And write, both my blog and my journal. Yes, I've started keeping a journal. Haven't written in that for a while either, cause the drive wore off. But I will, though. It's a good place to write down all my personal thoughts, so maybe I can save this blog for the more serious things. Oh, right. And work. Duh.
It's not a lot, really, the things I've written above. It's totally managable. Most people do more than that. It's just a matter of balance. And balance is what I will achieve.
- Nadia.
I think what I need is to strengthen my will and determination. I have to work harder to be the person that I want to be. I need to fight back the depression and all that comes with it, and get up and do something. This year I started working out at the gym where I work. I've been doing great for a while now, but lately I feel it's a real drag to have to go over there and work out. That sucks. I need to do it. Although I hate rutines, I still like to have them - contradictory, I know. So that is why, like I've said many times before, I need to get my life in order. And this time I'm gonna do it. Even if the drive wears of.
What I want at the moment, is to catch up to my homework this week since it's wintervacation. That way, it'll be easier to get back to school and keep up. I'm still getting top grades, but if this continues, I don't think I will anymore. Then, I want to work out regularly. It'll be a lot easier when the snow dissapears though, cause then I can jog outside. I also want to stop neglecting my books. I bought more than twenty new books this winter, and I've read two of them. Actually, I'm reading the second now. And of course, I want to spend time with Lars and my friends. And write, both my blog and my journal. Yes, I've started keeping a journal. Haven't written in that for a while either, cause the drive wore off. But I will, though. It's a good place to write down all my personal thoughts, so maybe I can save this blog for the more serious things. Oh, right. And work. Duh.
It's not a lot, really, the things I've written above. It's totally managable. Most people do more than that. It's just a matter of balance. And balance is what I will achieve.
- Nadia.