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i just read all my entries from this time last year and thats when i first started really doing all the things i do now on a regular basis, and i guess it was confusing and really fun for me a year ago and now i feel sort of pathetic jaded. i think its just this ridiculous first semester stuff. every saturday night i get really sad and dont want to go out. its nice to know i have options but i still feel really shitty. i am really unsure about a lot of things that i am not allowed to be unsure about at this point, which is really frustrating. i want to hibernate until january? that sounds so ridiculous because i fucking hate january and i know my answer for everything right now is SECOND SEMESTER SECOND SEMESTER but if i dont believe in that i dont have a lot to keep myself going.
school is actually really good, and things are good with everyone for the most part but its like if i give myself 30 seconds to stop and think i just freak out about a million things. and sometimes it is one thing that is like a magnet for other things that dont have to do with it. i do that a lot. okay
school is actually really good, and things are good with everyone for the most part but its like if i give myself 30 seconds to stop and think i just freak out about a million things. and sometimes it is one thing that is like a magnet for other things that dont have to do with it. i do that a lot. okay