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i dont know why it happened or when it started but today was one of those days when i was pathetic and couldnt bring myself to do anything like go to class like a big girl so i skipped the last period and a half. i have these days once a week where i flip out for NO REASON and ive gotten really really good at thinking up excuses and EVERYONE ALWAYS BELIEVES me because they never assume im gonna cut. which is bad.
i babysat for max and simon last night which was really exhausting and i didnt want to do it and i got home at 9 and had the worst splitting headache and just went straight to sleep and woke up this morning even more tired than usual. i had my college meeting with my parents which was fine and im doing well and whatevaasa but we talked about my personal statement and how i might write about jake and my mom went into a lot of gory detail that i didnt want to talk about and i felt uncomfortable and also worried about my personal statement. and my parents said that after jake got sick for the second time they lived in "fear for years" which i was not aware of and it was upsetting to hear. photo was confusing and costume was torture like usual except i got to seam rip for part and thats literally the only thing i like doing. then i went home on the most crowded horrible subway ride of all times and watched sex and the city. i have my 2,000 word term paper due next monday, two APs a couple weeks after that, SAT IIs a little after that, plus regular school work. i am so tired from this year building up and up. i am so so so tired.
i babysat for max and simon last night which was really exhausting and i didnt want to do it and i got home at 9 and had the worst splitting headache and just went straight to sleep and woke up this morning even more tired than usual. i had my college meeting with my parents which was fine and im doing well and whatevaasa but we talked about my personal statement and how i might write about jake and my mom went into a lot of gory detail that i didnt want to talk about and i felt uncomfortable and also worried about my personal statement. and my parents said that after jake got sick for the second time they lived in "fear for years" which i was not aware of and it was upsetting to hear. photo was confusing and costume was torture like usual except i got to seam rip for part and thats literally the only thing i like doing. then i went home on the most crowded horrible subway ride of all times and watched sex and the city. i have my 2,000 word term paper due next monday, two APs a couple weeks after that, SAT IIs a little after that, plus regular school work. i am so tired from this year building up and up. i am so so so tired.