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im shooting my 7 object still life for photo right now and the window is open and and im listening to my dad's music that i remember he played the time before the last time we were at the house in tuscany and we were waiting for dan and elizabeth to come meet us there and it was thick summer and i was alone in the living room listening to this song by the getaway people and this kind of perfect complete contentment is the best its what ive been waiting for for so long but this time i know its sustainable. i have so many good memories and the fact that i have never been able to live in the moment doesnt matter right now doesnt bother me right now because remembering moments is even better than living them sometimes. this is the kind of stupid livejournal post that makes me especially embarassed to have a livejournal but im so relieved and shocked that i actually think ive emerged from what was the worst winter i think ive ever had.
this weekend was also so good. i saw mr barton which was incredible as usual and he is so honest and so right all the time. seeing him makes me see things the way i want to and i realize ive been hard on myself about some things i dont need to be and real perspective from one of the most trustworthy people ive ever met is so nice to have. friday night i saw a lot lot of people i wanted to see and some people i wasnt expecting and i guess i set myself up for dumb situations but i dont really care because its fun to think about after and i was OUTSIDE near the river. charlotte slept here and in the morning we went downtown to go shopping with mags aliza sarah scone and we ate city bakery. then i went around to corner and met sally at her cousin's birthday party and i ate POPEYES it was so good the biscuits were like crumbles of heaven and then i went to sofia's and we used up friday night leftovers and went and met laura at a columbia dorm and the freshmen dorms there are pretty nice and walked home and watched tv and slept in her parents bed. this morning i went out and got us coffee and we made pancakes and watched that sex and the city when carrie equates herself with a wild stallion because she cannot be tamed. now i am home where i started from.
this weekend was also so good. i saw mr barton which was incredible as usual and he is so honest and so right all the time. seeing him makes me see things the way i want to and i realize ive been hard on myself about some things i dont need to be and real perspective from one of the most trustworthy people ive ever met is so nice to have. friday night i saw a lot lot of people i wanted to see and some people i wasnt expecting and i guess i set myself up for dumb situations but i dont really care because its fun to think about after and i was OUTSIDE near the river. charlotte slept here and in the morning we went downtown to go shopping with mags aliza sarah scone and we ate city bakery. then i went around to corner and met sally at her cousin's birthday party and i ate POPEYES it was so good the biscuits were like crumbles of heaven and then i went to sofia's and we used up friday night leftovers and went and met laura at a columbia dorm and the freshmen dorms there are pretty nice and walked home and watched tv and slept in her parents bed. this morning i went out and got us coffee and we made pancakes and watched that sex and the city when carrie equates herself with a wild stallion because she cannot be tamed. now i am home where i started from.