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i am in california and it is nice but it is february and it is february everywhere and i didnt realize how exhausted i was till i got on the plane i dont know how im gonna get myself through the next month and i wish i could shut my brain off but i cant and i never can so i may as well give up. i dont want to be in new york and i dont want to be anywhere
that having been said i took a walk for an hour and i walked in a straight line and there was no wind or cold forcing me back and that was good but still sort of made me as numb as cold does. just nothing is very good and wont be for a while. but i went out friday and danced really goofy so that was fun and i ate meat last night and that was good too. im not making sense so whatever.
i dont want anything or miss anything i just want to sleep and that is worse than being homesick or lonely or sad or anything else in the world.
that having been said i took a walk for an hour and i walked in a straight line and there was no wind or cold forcing me back and that was good but still sort of made me as numb as cold does. just nothing is very good and wont be for a while. but i went out friday and danced really goofy so that was fun and i ate meat last night and that was good too. im not making sense so whatever.
i dont want anything or miss anything i just want to sleep and that is worse than being homesick or lonely or sad or anything else in the world.