Re: something that has been held in but is now coming out because it's best you knew.plasticspitOctober 19 2005, 06:56:20 UTC
dear matthew, information behind that entry: - it was a day at the corn stand where one of my dear friends who previously hadn't been able to get out of bed/the hospital due to cancer and the pernicious side effects of radiation randomly showed up at the stand, bald headed and grinning. and she wouldn't let any of us ask about her all she wanted to know was how school went for me and what i'd been doing for the past year since i'd last seen her, etc. and she was so alive. and she was so happy. and she was so selfless. and she was so near death that it made me furious at everyone for being down. and it wasn't directed at you. but apparently you found yourself written into some small place between the lines. it was directed at everyone. it was directed at myself. and so don't take it personally. or do.
Re: something that has been held in but is now coming out because it's best you knew.appliancefaceOctober 19 2005, 16:25:54 UTC
well, that changes everything.
i'm sorry. i guess it seems that most of the words people use on the internet aren't as specific leading others into thinking something that isn't. i was confused and since you kind of stopped replying to emails and then i, stumbling across that journal entry, obviously thought it was towards me. even though the ways of communication are so hi tech these days, communication itself has become low tech and almost nonexistant, not only on the internet but everywhere. it's hard to talk to anybody these days. sometimes it's best talking to an inanimate object.
I like all of these people lined up at the door to your brain. They are ringing the doorbell and waiting to be invited into your mad genius/genial madness. I wish that I had come in the way, rather than by way of sneaking up the trellis through the second floor bedroom window of e-mail. This house metaphor sucks and I give up.
This is David, too. I logged out so I could see this page as it was inteded to be seen. The "spam robot challenge" of deciphering the alphanumeric jumble to make sure that you are a human being is harder than one would imagine. I've already failed twice. Maybe I'm not as human as I seem...?
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add me? *please?*
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_deplore!
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information behind that entry:
- it was a day at the corn stand where one of my dear friends who previously hadn't been able to get out of bed/the hospital due to cancer and the pernicious side effects of radiation randomly showed up at the stand, bald headed and grinning. and she wouldn't let any of us ask about her all she wanted to know was how school went for me and what i'd been doing for the past year since i'd last seen her, etc. and she was so alive. and she was so happy. and she was so selfless. and she was so near death that it made me furious at everyone for being down. and it wasn't directed at you. but apparently you found yourself written into some small place between the lines. it was directed at everyone. it was directed at myself.
and so don't take it personally. or do.
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i'm sorry. i guess it seems that most of the words people use on the internet aren't as specific leading others into thinking something that isn't. i was confused and since you kind of stopped replying to emails and then i, stumbling across that journal entry, obviously thought it was towards me. even though the ways of communication are so hi tech these days, communication itself has become low tech and almost nonexistant, not only on the internet but everywhere. it's hard to talk to anybody these days. sometimes it's best talking to an inanimate object.
anyways i truely apologize. i was misled.
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I like all of these people lined up at the door to your brain. They are ringing the doorbell and waiting to be invited into your mad genius/genial madness. I wish that I had come in the way, rather than by way of sneaking up the trellis through the second floor bedroom window of e-mail. This house metaphor sucks and I give up.
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