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Lots of stuff has happened, not quite sure where my head has been lately, but i know everything is getting better. The situation at home isn't really something that im into at all right now..i'm never home and im sorry, but thats how it is. i cant stand my mom getting upset with me for these random reasons and changing the reasons each week. it seems as though its an attempt to continuously make me feel bad about myself. the other week, i'm not sure how it came up, she yelled at me and told me i never see my friends. i have no idea what she meant by that, maybe saying i spend too much time with ed? but why the fuck shouldnt i?? its stupid that she even said that, even stupider that people say they don't call me because theyre intimidated by eddie. and that is the lamest excuse i have ever heard. hes not anyone to be scared of, and if you're worried to call me because of him then you really aren't worth time and effort anyways. lately i have been seeing people a lot more, but still my mom has these weird feelings about me going out, like its dangerous for me to drive a mile past my house at nighttime and having these random rules that keep changing about where i can and cant be. im basically just sick of dealing with constant mood changes that aren't my fault. im going away to school in four months.