cheesy response? ..perhaps..jnglboogiJune 1 2006, 17:15:51 UTC
What if our bodies are not a result of our genes but of our state of mind?
our bodies are a direct result of both. i know that when i'm depressed i don't eat = a skinnier me. i also know that my body is predisposed to gain weight in certain areas (butt, thighs) so i know to work those areas a little harder. it definitely goes both ways.
Why the fuck does my body even matter so much to me?
because you live in a society that says if you're not thin and beautiful you are nothing. you'd be hard-pressed to find ANYONE (in the US) who TRULY does not care about their appearance. i care about mine, but i wouldn't say that i'm insanely vain. i take pride in the way i look and honestly do it for me. (i know that sounds like a load of crap, but i'm serious) if was doing it for people around me i would've followed the herd, dyed my hair blonde and gotten a boob job YEARS ago...what i'm trying to say is that you just have to keep it all in perspective. caring about your appearance doesn't always equal narcissism.
i really don't think you're this "dreadful" person you've made yourself out to be. (believe me, i cannot stand the general public either..but i don't think i'm dreadful for feeling that way. i just can't stand the stupidity that surrounds me daily. <---maybe i have a bit of a superiority complex...oh well) ...sorry for the tangent...you are not a bad person, you're just going through a seriously rough time. i think the fact that you're questioning yourself and are constantly striving to be a better person proves that.
i hope you find your way to believing in yourself because you've got WAY too much to offer this world.
Re: cheesy response? ..perhaps..plasticprophetJune 2 2006, 03:02:22 UTC
Thank you for the kind words. I'm insanely appreciative that this random person that is you (who I must admit I hardly know) continues to chime into my life. How weird and marvelous.
I think the majority of the problems I have with my situation boil down to the fact that I have been completely taken in by this culture of what is acceptable, which you have described really very well as saying that if I am not thin and beautiful, I am nothing. I am of it and I am from it and I am unescapably a part of it. But this isn't really the problem, since I don't have to deal on a personal level with advertising and movies and television and magazines and all of the consumables in which our culture manifests itself. Instead, I have to deal on a daily basis with other idiots just like me who have also been infected by it. And while a person in life and a person on a television may both have perfect bodies, the person in life is the only who has the power to make me aware that I am inferior because I do not.
our bodies are a direct result of both. i know that when i'm depressed i don't eat = a skinnier me. i also know that my body is predisposed to gain weight in certain areas (butt, thighs) so i know to work those areas a little harder. it definitely goes both ways.
Why the fuck does my body even matter so much to me?
because you live in a society that says if you're not thin and beautiful you are nothing. you'd be hard-pressed to find ANYONE (in the US) who TRULY does not care about their appearance. i care about mine, but i wouldn't say that i'm insanely vain. i take pride in the way i look and honestly do it for me. (i know that sounds like a load of crap, but i'm serious) if was doing it for people around me i would've followed the herd, dyed my hair blonde and gotten a boob job YEARS ago...what i'm trying to say is that you just have to keep it all in perspective. caring about your appearance doesn't always equal narcissism.
i really don't think you're this "dreadful" person you've made yourself out to be. (believe me, i cannot stand the general public either..but i don't think i'm dreadful for feeling that way. i just can't stand the stupidity that surrounds me daily. <---maybe i have a bit of a superiority complex...oh well) ...sorry for the tangent...you are not a bad person, you're just going through a seriously rough time. i think the fact that you're questioning yourself and are constantly striving to be a better person proves that.
i hope you find your way to believing in yourself because you've got WAY too much to offer this world.
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I think the majority of the problems I have with my situation boil down to the fact that I have been completely taken in by this culture of what is acceptable, which you have described really very well as saying that if I am not thin and beautiful, I am nothing. I am of it and I am from it and I am unescapably a part of it. But this isn't really the problem, since I don't have to deal on a personal level with advertising and movies and television and magazines and all of the consumables in which our culture manifests itself. Instead, I have to deal on a daily basis with other idiots just like me who have also been infected by it. And while a person in life and a person on a television may both have perfect bodies, the person in life is the only who has the power to make me aware that I am inferior because I do not.
I ramble and I enjoy it immensely.
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