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Ah, it's time to face facts.
Nothing helps. All the psycho- and self- analysis, all the drugs, all the support in the world isn't going to make this better. I will never beat this thing. It's the same on the medications as off; I can smile and laugh, and convince myself I'm actually happy through the best of times, but when it's over I'm left again with nothing. I'm up for a while, maybe even a few days, and then I'm paralyzed for a few days. This will be my life, and it will kill me.
The point is this: I won't be updating this until I have something to say. I'm sorry.
Nothing helps. All the psycho- and self- analysis, all the drugs, all the support in the world isn't going to make this better. I will never beat this thing. It's the same on the medications as off; I can smile and laugh, and convince myself I'm actually happy through the best of times, but when it's over I'm left again with nothing. I'm up for a while, maybe even a few days, and then I'm paralyzed for a few days. This will be my life, and it will kill me.
The point is this: I won't be updating this until I have something to say. I'm sorry.