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Hi everybody. Long time no see!
Haven't really said much cos there's not been a lot to say. I'm frustrated a lot lately at how little people are willing to be friends with us. We're never really close friends with anyone. Something about Chinese people prevents us from having any real close relationships with them. Either because we have no permanent place in society, we're not Chinese, or something. There is some reason that we just can't form deep bonds with people. People dont' call us to include us in things, if we want to see our friends it always has to be us calling them (are they afraid to ask us out because it's rude to do that and for us to pay?), and even then it's just me and that person. *sigh* it's a lonely country. I like it a lot, but I'm not sure I could live here for most of my life, as I'd just never ever be treated like a real person. Maybe that'd be different if I weren't in such a small place.
Here's an interesting difference: in the west, when we find out that someone is from another country, we tend to ask about their country, their lives, what they eat, etc. In China, people always ask about China: do we like china, chinese food, aren't chinese people so nice and friendly, isn't Yibin great, how can you go shopping if you can't speak Chinese [because by the way, no foreigners can speak Chinese. Even babies know you're supposed to say "hello" to foreigners]. Scott muses, while discussing this, that there's just no thought given to the outside world, because...why would you ever want to leave China? We have the best of everything right here! It doesn't get any better than [insert the shitty small town you live in]!
Other than that frustration, there are the following issues: Parents are coming in May and I'm really kind of excited to show them where I've been living for the past 7 months.
Plans are getting cemented for the summer, and they include a month and a half of travelling after the school year, then to Korea for a week to a week and a half (and Jung-Eun, Da-Eun and Nae-Young will all be there, and maybe Yuki!), then it'll be back to Oregon. However Kanako probably won't be coming with me which means I don't know when I'll see that girl again. Then it's back to AU for what is presumably my last action-packed year.
I've started to get the hang of reading Guzheng music, and I hope I can get some level of skill at playing before I leave.
I goddamn love CSI and CSI-Miami. We spend much too much time watching that and trying to beat Halo 2 on legendary.
I miss having real friends.
Haven't really said much cos there's not been a lot to say. I'm frustrated a lot lately at how little people are willing to be friends with us. We're never really close friends with anyone. Something about Chinese people prevents us from having any real close relationships with them. Either because we have no permanent place in society, we're not Chinese, or something. There is some reason that we just can't form deep bonds with people. People dont' call us to include us in things, if we want to see our friends it always has to be us calling them (are they afraid to ask us out because it's rude to do that and for us to pay?), and even then it's just me and that person. *sigh* it's a lonely country. I like it a lot, but I'm not sure I could live here for most of my life, as I'd just never ever be treated like a real person. Maybe that'd be different if I weren't in such a small place.
Here's an interesting difference: in the west, when we find out that someone is from another country, we tend to ask about their country, their lives, what they eat, etc. In China, people always ask about China: do we like china, chinese food, aren't chinese people so nice and friendly, isn't Yibin great, how can you go shopping if you can't speak Chinese [because by the way, no foreigners can speak Chinese. Even babies know you're supposed to say "hello" to foreigners]. Scott muses, while discussing this, that there's just no thought given to the outside world, because...why would you ever want to leave China? We have the best of everything right here! It doesn't get any better than [insert the shitty small town you live in]!
Other than that frustration, there are the following issues: Parents are coming in May and I'm really kind of excited to show them where I've been living for the past 7 months.
Plans are getting cemented for the summer, and they include a month and a half of travelling after the school year, then to Korea for a week to a week and a half (and Jung-Eun, Da-Eun and Nae-Young will all be there, and maybe Yuki!), then it'll be back to Oregon. However Kanako probably won't be coming with me which means I don't know when I'll see that girl again. Then it's back to AU for what is presumably my last action-packed year.
I've started to get the hang of reading Guzheng music, and I hope I can get some level of skill at playing before I leave.
I goddamn love CSI and CSI-Miami. We spend much too much time watching that and trying to beat Halo 2 on legendary.
I miss having real friends.