the ghost inside
i feel so incredibly sad right now, and not a single soul i can tell it to.
not a "oh i am feeling sorry for myself sad."
or even the sadness i feel when things in the news or world get to me.
it is a strange, floating kind of sadness that has no reason, arrival, or departure date. a sadness i don't know what to do with. i am not sure it is even mine. so i will hold onto it until it decides to move on. i am sure that will be when the sun comes up. it is just so confusing. i feel annoyed at everyone i shall not tell about this, too.
i was in the company of men. now i am here.
not a "oh i am feeling sorry for myself sad."
or even the sadness i feel when things in the news or world get to me.
it is a strange, floating kind of sadness that has no reason, arrival, or departure date. a sadness i don't know what to do with. i am not sure it is even mine. so i will hold onto it until it decides to move on. i am sure that will be when the sun comes up. it is just so confusing. i feel annoyed at everyone i shall not tell about this, too.
i was in the company of men. now i am here.