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I'm having a good time in Australia.
It's warm, the food tastes wonderful (they can grow anything in australia so it's all really fresh), I can swim in the ocean, I have a room in an oldish house with fun people, I've seen some fun and delightful things, I have an old bike too, I'm losing all the muscle tone in my body.
I don't think I'm having exactly the typical travel experience, of going from place to place to place, meeting lots of other travellers, being full of doubt, almost getting arrested, putting yourself into danger needlessly, finding yourself. In the future maybe I'll save up more money, and go somewhere else for a shorter period of time (a month?) and have a big tour.
Strangely, I have an urge to develop myself as an artist more (when i get back, not so much now). As a career. I want to be serious, and not fuck around any more. I might go back to school for a short period of time (one or two years) to learn graphic design or something. I want to have a job where I contribute something personal, where I bring something that not just anyone can do. I see people with nicer things than I have - clothes, houses, vacations, whatever - and it's not that I have a yearning for those *things*, or even for the status they confer, but I want to be motivated and capable enough to *earn* that kind of power myself.
Is that the opposite from what most people discover about themselves when on vacation?
The relationship is going fine. I was worried it would be terrible. It was weird for the first couple weeks, as i was adjusting, but then i basically fell in love again. However the factor of being dependent on someone complicates things - at one point I had a bad day and realised that Tony was the only person in Australia that I can ask for a hug. And in this relationship we both have different ideas of how much time to spend together. I love him but I love myself too, and I like to spend time alone. For some reason it's hard to communicate that without making it seem like I don't want to spend time with him. I think I just need to be stronger. Is Australia making me into a lazier, fatter, poorer, more submissive, less environmentally-friendly person?????
In terms of personality traits (alex maybe myers-briggs has an opinion on this?) sometimes a trait can have a good and bad flipside. He can be kind of immature and a bit clingy, but on the flipside he is a LOT of fun to hang out with.
I think that when you go and spend time in a different place, it sort of makes you re-evaluate your ideas about life, about How Society Should Be Run. Because if you're in a different geographical location, with different climate, history, and circumstances, the reasons underpinning your opinions could no longer be there.
I am starting to miss home, and wish I could participate in the winter wonderful fun, the way snow disrupts things with beauty, the way it makes people so giddy after months of shitty rain.
It's warm, the food tastes wonderful (they can grow anything in australia so it's all really fresh), I can swim in the ocean, I have a room in an oldish house with fun people, I've seen some fun and delightful things, I have an old bike too, I'm losing all the muscle tone in my body.
I don't think I'm having exactly the typical travel experience, of going from place to place to place, meeting lots of other travellers, being full of doubt, almost getting arrested, putting yourself into danger needlessly, finding yourself. In the future maybe I'll save up more money, and go somewhere else for a shorter period of time (a month?) and have a big tour.
Strangely, I have an urge to develop myself as an artist more (when i get back, not so much now). As a career. I want to be serious, and not fuck around any more. I might go back to school for a short period of time (one or two years) to learn graphic design or something. I want to have a job where I contribute something personal, where I bring something that not just anyone can do. I see people with nicer things than I have - clothes, houses, vacations, whatever - and it's not that I have a yearning for those *things*, or even for the status they confer, but I want to be motivated and capable enough to *earn* that kind of power myself.
Is that the opposite from what most people discover about themselves when on vacation?
The relationship is going fine. I was worried it would be terrible. It was weird for the first couple weeks, as i was adjusting, but then i basically fell in love again. However the factor of being dependent on someone complicates things - at one point I had a bad day and realised that Tony was the only person in Australia that I can ask for a hug. And in this relationship we both have different ideas of how much time to spend together. I love him but I love myself too, and I like to spend time alone. For some reason it's hard to communicate that without making it seem like I don't want to spend time with him. I think I just need to be stronger. Is Australia making me into a lazier, fatter, poorer, more submissive, less environmentally-friendly person?????
In terms of personality traits (alex maybe myers-briggs has an opinion on this?) sometimes a trait can have a good and bad flipside. He can be kind of immature and a bit clingy, but on the flipside he is a LOT of fun to hang out with.
I think that when you go and spend time in a different place, it sort of makes you re-evaluate your ideas about life, about How Society Should Be Run. Because if you're in a different geographical location, with different climate, history, and circumstances, the reasons underpinning your opinions could no longer be there.
I am starting to miss home, and wish I could participate in the winter wonderful fun, the way snow disrupts things with beauty, the way it makes people so giddy after months of shitty rain.