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[plasticineocean]

I have been improving myself at an unprecedented rate over the past nine months or so! But so far I've been handling the relatively easy stuff - not the big, important, scary, difficult stuff about myself. I like making lists these days of things that should not be in lists

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[plasticineocean]

I agree about the sanity/insanity factors. The complicated part is that artists are expected to flirt with insanity, in order to make interesting artwork. I guess it's kind of a balancing act. And I think you're right that i have to take it day by day, and just keep doing it.

I didn't really start drinking since the last time I (more or less) stopped, months ago. The list was kind of an overview of the last year or so. The part about me drinking just the other day was mostly a reference to the drink I had with you after your mashed potatoes show that I missed! I threw it in because I thought you might read it and be like, "SURE you don't drink, Joelle.... sure you don't."

I'm not tempted to drink, but I totally hear you on the AmeriChristian factor. I think it factors into sex as well. In my opinion, playing with the good/bad being virtuous/giving in to delicious temptation is FUN, if you have it under control! I totally do that with coffee - 'try' to give it up, and then succumb to the sweet buzz of caffeine, and also enjoy the guilt when I wake up in the morning with my addiction to fulfill.