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ha! I think it's funny that I was just thinking to myself "...I feel like writing in livejournal. And then cleaning this whole apartment because it looks like a tornado hit it. oo! I want to play Meet Joe Black while I'm cleaning." and then I came on here and saw my last entry. Poor Rob, I will never give his movie back. Mwahaha.
I woke up this morning at around 8 because that's what my body does to me on a Saturday morning, and I was in a horrible mood. The type of mood where you are not content with anything in your life and you can't escape the overwhelming notion that you are doing everything wrong. So I fell back asleep to avoid this emotion. And I woke back up in it again, so I'm guessing it's there for a reason and I'm frustrated as to why.
I hate complaining... but I feel a bit misunderstood by people. It might be my doing, since I like to wear my heart on my sleeve and build a wall at once, so that when someone gets close to me every turn is wall or heart, wall or heart until it's this dramatically skewed vision of me that isn't wholy right. Oyy.
It's like my mind decided to wake up and be 16 again. Blah.
I'm hoping some productivity today will make me happier. And seeing some people who truly appreciate me!! yay!
I woke up this morning at around 8 because that's what my body does to me on a Saturday morning, and I was in a horrible mood. The type of mood where you are not content with anything in your life and you can't escape the overwhelming notion that you are doing everything wrong. So I fell back asleep to avoid this emotion. And I woke back up in it again, so I'm guessing it's there for a reason and I'm frustrated as to why.
I hate complaining... but I feel a bit misunderstood by people. It might be my doing, since I like to wear my heart on my sleeve and build a wall at once, so that when someone gets close to me every turn is wall or heart, wall or heart until it's this dramatically skewed vision of me that isn't wholy right. Oyy.
It's like my mind decided to wake up and be 16 again. Blah.
I'm hoping some productivity today will make me happier. And seeing some people who truly appreciate me!! yay!