I'm sick of this.

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I'm sick of him spending time with other people and not me. I just want him to care enough to make some time for me. I'm so miserable trying to pretend like it doesn't bother me, holding out until maybe his auditions are over, hoping that maybe he'll have time for me then, but its just not working. Not when he spends time with other friends. I hate being jealous of other people but hearing that Lizz was hanging out with him really bothered me. Knowing that he sees Ashley every day bothers me. Hearing that he goes to Kristina's house bothers me. Watching him dance with Cori bothered me. Knowing that he's doing that church thing with Ashley bothers me. I just can't deal with being so fucking emotional all of the time. I'm clingy, and he's not helping at all. It's not helping my miserably low self confidence that he spends his time with people five times prettier than me. I'm just sick of it all.

So what do I do? Tell him that we're taking a break? Flat out dump him? I just don't know.