I don't understand you better than most; I am just your friend, with troubles of my own.

[plastic_pearls]

Although I could be using my desire to type to complete (start) my english essay on innocence and experience, or talk to people, I am enjoying the way my fingers slide across the keyboard without my brain having to connect. I am in one of those moods, where you are not a very exciting person, but have every desire to be exciting and interesting,

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[aramsworld]

I would choose innocence without a shadow of a doubt. Take christmas, for example, during innocence christmas means so much more than presents. I can't really explain it but it was like a kind of dormant ecstacy, that you only became aware of a day or two before christmas day. After that realisation, you could think of nothing else, and the day itself was never a disappointment. If I won the lottery, I would pay a white haired fat guy to be father christmas (he's called father christmas by the way, not "Santa Claus"), and people would adjust their chimneys and he would deliver one present to everyone. It wouldn't have to be massive, but that excitement of not knowing what he would bring would return, and we could all enjoy christmas as we used to.
Plus, experience is boring. During innocence, you aren't interested in the deep questions of life, all you care about is when you're gonna get your next ribena fix. So little really matters to you, and as I look back on it, I remember how free I felt. I didn't really care about the problems or interests of others, but that was fine because nobody expected me to, I was only five. I still don't care about most people's problems and interests, but now I get called rude for telling them so.
I would love to be Peter Pan, and fly off to neverland. I can't say that anymore, since Jacko, fucking dickhead ruining my innocent dreams of neverland.
I am hopeful however. I think once I retire I can lose most of my responsibility, and maybe reclaim some of my innocence. I plan to own and run a farm, where kids can come for free, and feed and play with donkeys, sheep, pigs, chickens, cows, and everything. I think having a grandad with his own farm would have been amazing.
It's typical that during innocence, I wanted responsibility and experience, but once I got them, I wanted to send them back again...
xxx (innocent kisses)

[clanger]

i second that one ram.
especially about the christmas thing. For years, even when i knew santa didn't exist, somewhere in the back of my mind still believed that he'd be coming down the chimney. but then something clicked and now stockings are like easter eggs at the end of beds. explainable.

[kiss_mequick]

RAMBO
add me
xx

[plastic_pearls]

It's true what you told me today, that you left a fabulous comment.

It's typical that during innocence, I wanted responsibility and experience, but once I got them, I wanted to send them back again...
It's true - 'the knowledge that makes ys cherish innocence makes innocence unnattainable'. It's too late to send them back i guess. I don't necessarily view that as a bad thing though, just a fact of life.

Innocent kisses right backatya xxxxx (i do miss you)