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i just got home from my sleepover in gainsville. i really would love to live there. im seriously considering going to santa fe next semester. in one simple week i've realized a lot about myself. i've had a bittersweet feeling the past couple days. like, i realize how beautiful everything is, and how much life i have but there is this sad feeling below it all. i wish i could be a stong person and rid myself of that feeling but it just keeps popping up. when i was in gainsville with wendy, it subsided for the most part but 2 hours was a long drive with nothing to occupy my mind. i only want to be surrounded by people who honestly care about me. i need people who care about being my friend just as much as i care about being theirs. well, spending time with wendy and all her friends was really cathartic; my anger at this situation has faded into disappointment. it's a much easier emotion to handle i think. i want things to be right again.