as my memory rests,it never forgets what it lost
ah yes. so my week is still in suck mode.ive been searching for redmeption at every corner and coming up short.ive never thought of myself as a materialistic person,but the things i suppose i have taken for granted are now temporarily at a standstill. since the accident,i have actually been devising a plan to pay back my bills which include taxes,a deductible for the car and a cell phone bill i still owe my mom.she is still using my car so i am left bumming rides off of everyone ,which is ironice because i used to drive everyone and now i am sometimes so desparate for a ride. I asked Anna Mayr why god lets this happen to me and she claims it is just a test.well,ive never really been one for god but there needs to be some kind of external locus. rob is the only one i have and that i know anymore,he is still there.even my friends arent.fairweather friends who come and go as they please.hopefully the relatives will shell out enough money for graduation,or i will win the senior class presentation and pocket $1000. i watched a movie based on the life of ed gein yesterday and was so disappointed.there was no gore,no necrophilia, not even the shots of bludgeoning.i came for the death and destruction,not a plot line.whatever.