if you left,id stay here,waiting for you
i am in the worst mood i have been in for awhile.i accomplished alot of christmas shopping but also had a falling out with rob.it hurts.i am alone tonite and left to contemplate,is love subconsciously based upon ignorance being bliss? as long as they dont tell you whats going on,will everything be ok?
does getting involved with public enemy number 1, constitute a life of misery?
the mall is what started this whole thing.i went with briana after work to see lyd.things eventually led their waay back to rob and we found eachother.walked around for a little bit and then people i didnt know kept approaching him and asking him about these different girls and things of that nature.i totally blew him off,made a scene and walked away,where i managed to see both the one guy i had a crush on for 2 years and the one i was last talking to,but even spite neglected to linger in my mind.i was hurt.so the dissonance lies here ,my friends: do i ,believe the word of mallgoth mouth(ie:moms minivan passengers,the sometimes bis and amanda neff and various juggalos) or do i see past them as a noncredible source and go with the feeling that has felt so right? tough decision, for the fact that all rumors stem from something,some truth.rob disagrees; he believes rumors are most of the time started by bored people who take time out of their DDR playing to make his life hell,which is,not far from feasible.he also almost got into a fight and took on 2 gay guys(which i was ready to enter flailing and ready to kick some ass),but dignity managed to show through.he also explained that he will not hesitate to abandon weak people in his life.which i took as an ultimatum.i love this kid and refuse to let him go but if i have to ,i will cut every piece of essex trash to get to him.
does getting involved with public enemy number 1, constitute a life of misery?
the mall is what started this whole thing.i went with briana after work to see lyd.things eventually led their waay back to rob and we found eachother.walked around for a little bit and then people i didnt know kept approaching him and asking him about these different girls and things of that nature.i totally blew him off,made a scene and walked away,where i managed to see both the one guy i had a crush on for 2 years and the one i was last talking to,but even spite neglected to linger in my mind.i was hurt.so the dissonance lies here ,my friends: do i ,believe the word of mallgoth mouth(ie:moms minivan passengers,the sometimes bis and amanda neff and various juggalos) or do i see past them as a noncredible source and go with the feeling that has felt so right? tough decision, for the fact that all rumors stem from something,some truth.rob disagrees; he believes rumors are most of the time started by bored people who take time out of their DDR playing to make his life hell,which is,not far from feasible.he also almost got into a fight and took on 2 gay guys(which i was ready to enter flailing and ready to kick some ass),but dignity managed to show through.he also explained that he will not hesitate to abandon weak people in his life.which i took as an ultimatum.i love this kid and refuse to let him go but if i have to ,i will cut every piece of essex trash to get to him.