Dec 05, 2003 00:54
[procrastinating history vocab]
I can easily say that Kate Chopin's, The Awakening, has to be the best book I have had the pleasure of reading. I encourage anyone with some free time to read it; it can be done in two hours if you really want to. I find it funny how much I relate with the main character on some levels - a woman who feels a distant love with her loved ones. I want to have a literary discussion on the novel!!! This excites me because its the first english honors book I read cover to cover. I want to drift out to sea in the warm water...
This whole job thing and having to pay my own bills... I feel older.
I really have not been truely happy in quite some time... I am content most of the time; holding on to my life preserver, as not to sink. I find myself want to cut, I'm not depressed. I just want to feel that rush of adreneline again... I want to see the blood rush from the cuts... I know what real problem is... but I won't admit it to myself or to you...
I really want to see The Ataris Dec 11. Christmas is in twenty days... jesus time flies. This time last year I was dating Jefferey... haha but I really didn't consider that a relationship - a mistake. I'm 16.5. I wonder if I need to find things to occupy my life again; I didn't have work today and I was like fuck... what do I do now? So Nikki and I went took a test, went to bank, payed my phone bill, and went to go eat.
_davey