Sep 14, 2008 20:59
Every waking moment we feel, we see, we touch, we see we smell. We FEEL, and yet as real as what we sense, some feel it is all unreal. The experience of reality is such that it is really, real. What do I mean by this? I mean that the human experience is surreal in its truest sense, that reality is so real that one has no other choice but to think it unreal to prove that it is in fact what it is not.
Like the paradox of the brightest light, that which no human eyes can see, yet is brighter than any star in the universe. The experience of humanity of reality can only be affirmed by looking at what it is not. An experience can be examined or ignored, it can be turned inside and out to look for meanings, learning's and signs which may or may not be there. By itself in its truest form, an experience is devoid of any alignment, be it good or bad. It is in its context that we view it as such.
Experience gives birth to hindsight and hindsight gives birth to wisdom. And in the course of life youth does not give heed to wisdom. For experience is a non-linear linear chain of events. What I mean to say, is that the human experience may take the gamut of all forms of human experience, but there are constants that shape it. Birth, growing up, getting married [or not getting married], growing old and dying are but part and parcel of every human experience. These can take as many shapes and forms as infinite as the stars in the universe.
Take for example a guitar. Luthier and guitarists alike say that no one guitar sounds the same, and yet many look alike and sound alike, but there are nuances to each that may not be a big difference to one who does not scrutinize. But to the trained ears, eyes and feel of a seasoned musician the nuances make all the differences. These nuances are what drives a guitarist to search for what he calls the "ultimate tone" that one defining sound that will say "I am."
As such, the human experience is similar, we look for many things in life. We take these and examine them in post script, in pre script or even while we are experiencing them. And then we struggle and we search for that experience that will define us.
So then, the really real, that which we feel so intensely is indeed real. We only feel that it is unreal because we are over-sensitized to the purity of our experiences. And yet like that elusive "Ultimate tone" we never tire of the search. As humans we will run the gamut of all the experiences that our choices, and the choices of the other will give us.
But in the end, this search for the "ultimate tone" will lead to one conclusion. That the ultimate tone is ultimate because it changes, and that change is what is the ultimate. There will be defining moments in our lives, but in the end changes will govern us, and our choices will make us who we are.
But it is surprising to see that who really are, changes through time. Take the time to examine experience, and each time the result will not be the same. That kiss that you shared with your first crush might mean so much during your childhood, but when reflecting on it as an adult you see something different.
We are mysteries upon ourselves. Those who say they truly know themselves may be lying or may be telling the one truth. That knowing oneself is accepting that there will always be more to oneself that one knows.
"self mastery is not knowing yourself fully, it is in accepting that you will never know yourself completely"