Change
Life is about change in a way. More so about God, but part of God is change and part of God is about not changing. There is this kind of idea about God, that he is perfect. Its true. Perfection needs no change. Which brings me to the point of saying that part of God that causes him to be perfection, is the change which he (she, it, whatever) is going though. See, God is, in fact, everything. Period. No holes barred.
God is the murderer next door and the rapist down the street, the pervert in the corner and every innocent child. God is. There is nothing that is otherwise than God. For if it is, and if it is not, then it is, in fact, God. This is the nature of God.
So, you are, in fact, God. And you are, in fact, Perfect. And when you become someoen else, someone you were not a minute ago, you will again be God, and you will have never ceased to be God and you will have never ceased to be Perfect.
It is my held beleif that this means that everything that comes our way in life, as it is being God, should be enjoyed. End of story. To come to this enviroment, I also hold the strong belief that if any feeling other than enjoyment (or contentment, perfection, etc.{your terms always work best for you}) arises, and even if enjoyment arises, then there is reason to look at how I feel about what is happening, and look at why i feel the way i do, and look at what it means to feel the way i do, and to understand, in essence, that deep down i feel that i WANT something. I am Selfish. I AM.
This brings me to understand that i am rooted in selfishness, and by being the way i am, i am causing myself to see myself as something other than part of God, something other than perfect, something radical, and in essence (even though this is still thoughts, feelings, and truths of God) miserable.
This reasoning leads me to believe that misery is merely caused by selfishness. If i was not centered on my self and what i could gain from every situation, then perhaps i would not be miserable. Perhaps i would no longer fear, perhaps i would enjoy everything that happens in life, even getting my arm chopped off with a hacksaw (notice, its actually chopped off, not sawed or hackked off).
Then i took a long look at myself (actually mostly someone else did and told me the results, and i finally admitted to them because i knew they were right), and noticed that there WERE degrees to my selfishness. Quite frankly i found that it would easy to break down the walls of selfishness quickly using a selfish process, which in the end, was sure would end up destroying itself (but still a long ways off).
This process IS the process of looking at everything that happens in life, and everything that is felt in life, and everything that is ever thought in my mind as an oppertunity to Learn.
When I feel something I ask, Why? When i think i know something, I ask why, how, and for what purpose? When anything comes to mind, i analyse it to its very core, and understand it, and come to an understanding of what it means.....
This means that i see how i am, and i understand why i act the way i do, and this causes me to no longer fear what is happening in my life, and to no longer question why certain things are happening, and to no longer feel like people should be punished or treated in any way for anything. It has caused me to be free. If someone should be mad at me it is my lesson to have someone mad at me, and their lesson to be mad, and my lesson to learn from it and their lesson to learn from it, and my lesson to accept that they do this because of who they are, and be compassionate, and my lesson to allow them to play out how they feel, and my lesson to accept what comes my way, as it is God, and my lesson to love it, and accept it, and enjoy it. Not from an arrogant standpoint, not from an aloof standpoint, not from a bitter or sour standpoint, but from a compassionate and loving standpoint. It is the way i am.
-Cole
God is the murderer next door and the rapist down the street, the pervert in the corner and every innocent child. God is. There is nothing that is otherwise than God. For if it is, and if it is not, then it is, in fact, God. This is the nature of God.
So, you are, in fact, God. And you are, in fact, Perfect. And when you become someoen else, someone you were not a minute ago, you will again be God, and you will have never ceased to be God and you will have never ceased to be Perfect.
It is my held beleif that this means that everything that comes our way in life, as it is being God, should be enjoyed. End of story. To come to this enviroment, I also hold the strong belief that if any feeling other than enjoyment (or contentment, perfection, etc.{your terms always work best for you}) arises, and even if enjoyment arises, then there is reason to look at how I feel about what is happening, and look at why i feel the way i do, and look at what it means to feel the way i do, and to understand, in essence, that deep down i feel that i WANT something. I am Selfish. I AM.
This brings me to understand that i am rooted in selfishness, and by being the way i am, i am causing myself to see myself as something other than part of God, something other than perfect, something radical, and in essence (even though this is still thoughts, feelings, and truths of God) miserable.
This reasoning leads me to believe that misery is merely caused by selfishness. If i was not centered on my self and what i could gain from every situation, then perhaps i would not be miserable. Perhaps i would no longer fear, perhaps i would enjoy everything that happens in life, even getting my arm chopped off with a hacksaw (notice, its actually chopped off, not sawed or hackked off).
Then i took a long look at myself (actually mostly someone else did and told me the results, and i finally admitted to them because i knew they were right), and noticed that there WERE degrees to my selfishness. Quite frankly i found that it would easy to break down the walls of selfishness quickly using a selfish process, which in the end, was sure would end up destroying itself (but still a long ways off).
This process IS the process of looking at everything that happens in life, and everything that is felt in life, and everything that is ever thought in my mind as an oppertunity to Learn.
When I feel something I ask, Why? When i think i know something, I ask why, how, and for what purpose? When anything comes to mind, i analyse it to its very core, and understand it, and come to an understanding of what it means.....
This means that i see how i am, and i understand why i act the way i do, and this causes me to no longer fear what is happening in my life, and to no longer question why certain things are happening, and to no longer feel like people should be punished or treated in any way for anything. It has caused me to be free. If someone should be mad at me it is my lesson to have someone mad at me, and their lesson to be mad, and my lesson to learn from it and their lesson to learn from it, and my lesson to accept that they do this because of who they are, and be compassionate, and my lesson to allow them to play out how they feel, and my lesson to accept what comes my way, as it is God, and my lesson to love it, and accept it, and enjoy it. Not from an arrogant standpoint, not from an aloof standpoint, not from a bitter or sour standpoint, but from a compassionate and loving standpoint. It is the way i am.
-Cole