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[planeold_god]

every once in a while, things get in the way, that make you think about how its going to effect others who are involved with and around you. there is one thing that i cant emulate, and its something that i want more then anything in the world. no drug can cease this desire. iwant to get back on a fucking stage. thats it. i want to be on the stage in the spotlight, with all the people bashing the hell out of each other, getting so into the music that the pain is irrelavent. the longing for this is so strong, and the only way to get back on the stage, is to make music. music that makes you want to beat the hell out someone, music that makes you want to jump in the pit feet first and get thrown around. for the last year i have been working with teo very good friends of mine kris and mike. the music that i have been working on with the two of them is good. its different and more complicated then the work that i did with odium, and its more fun i think. but i was recently introduced to a band in sarasota called antherom, and they are fucking amazing. i love the guitar, and the solos are badass. but as much as i want to continue playing with kris and mike, we are making no progress, and we argue more and more. to be honest kris and i have hardly gotten along at all recently. i dont like practicing at matties to begin with, and on top of that he is hell bent on going to orlando with her in the fall. with that in mind i think that it would be better for me to move on and go with the other band. but i think that i am going to talk to dave and find out if kris mike and i could move all of out equitment to the church wheer they practice. if that can happen, then i am going to play with both bands. if i cant then i am going to allow kris and mike to go their own way. its been a good time jamming with them, and we have had a tin of good times, but i think that it might be time for that good time to end.
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its hard to imagine and its hard to forget
its the times like these that make you who you are.