Prayers
I found myself traveling down a familiar road today. I emailed Amy, and she didn't get back to me. She may not have had time, she may not have wanted to, she may have wanted to think about a response. Regardless, it was my reaction that caught me off guard. I realized that I was starting to get depressed, anxious, nervous, hurt. Finally, I came home and started researching prayers. I have serious abadonment issues. Anytime someone doesn't return a call or email within a day or two, I start to feel as though that person doesn't like me or they don't care, etc... So. Here it is. This is one prayer that I found that made me feel better.
God bless all who are battling those inner demons of depression,
loneliness, unworthiness, and hopelessness. Shine Your warm Heavenly Light down upon all of us, Lord, who are looking for our soul mates. Guide us to find peace, happiness, and contentment in our lives and within ourselves. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.
I must learn to lean on God. In one of my emails to Amy I quoted an inspirational poster that my mother got. "The closer we are to God, the closer we are to each other." I need to feel that, to experience it. God will guide me.
Amy-
You are my friend. I do love you, but...you are my friend first. I'm happy to have your friendship. Please don't misunderstand my emails. I only want to be your friend. The connection we share will always be a special one and I know that deep inside you feel something of what I do. God will decide our fate. Right now we both have personal healing to be done with God. *kisses forehead* I want to share our spiritual successes and share what we gain. *hugs*. Love you.
Hannah -
You have been a tremendous spiritual help. It may not seem like it at times, but your very nature has inspired me to seek God. I can think of no greater compliment. You helped me to pick up the pieces and ease the pain, when I reached out you offered God and your love. I have loved hearing about your life and I wish I could comfort you. I know what it is that your going through, and though I have focused too much on myself, I don't want you to think that I don't notice and care. I do. I hope that when we meet, I won't be a disappointment.
Jillian -
I don't know how often you check in on my corner of the world, but I want you to know that I place great value on your opinions and thoughts. I trust you and feel that you have had my best interest in mind. I know that in some way...I have disappointed you. I also know that you understand why. *hugs* I hope that you don't think less of me, because I think you are wonderful. Carl is lucky to have someone like you and I can' t wait for the wedding. I know that God will bless you all of your life. I must admit though, I am jealous. Your living my dream...
God bless all who are battling those inner demons of depression,
loneliness, unworthiness, and hopelessness. Shine Your warm Heavenly Light down upon all of us, Lord, who are looking for our soul mates. Guide us to find peace, happiness, and contentment in our lives and within ourselves. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.
I must learn to lean on God. In one of my emails to Amy I quoted an inspirational poster that my mother got. "The closer we are to God, the closer we are to each other." I need to feel that, to experience it. God will guide me.
Amy-
You are my friend. I do love you, but...you are my friend first. I'm happy to have your friendship. Please don't misunderstand my emails. I only want to be your friend. The connection we share will always be a special one and I know that deep inside you feel something of what I do. God will decide our fate. Right now we both have personal healing to be done with God. *kisses forehead* I want to share our spiritual successes and share what we gain. *hugs*. Love you.
Hannah -
You have been a tremendous spiritual help. It may not seem like it at times, but your very nature has inspired me to seek God. I can think of no greater compliment. You helped me to pick up the pieces and ease the pain, when I reached out you offered God and your love. I have loved hearing about your life and I wish I could comfort you. I know what it is that your going through, and though I have focused too much on myself, I don't want you to think that I don't notice and care. I do. I hope that when we meet, I won't be a disappointment.
Jillian -
I don't know how often you check in on my corner of the world, but I want you to know that I place great value on your opinions and thoughts. I trust you and feel that you have had my best interest in mind. I know that in some way...I have disappointed you. I also know that you understand why. *hugs* I hope that you don't think less of me, because I think you are wonderful. Carl is lucky to have someone like you and I can' t wait for the wedding. I know that God will bless you all of your life. I must admit though, I am jealous. Your living my dream...