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there's always someone right behind me. first i can hear them then i can feel them. sometimes i catch little glimpses of them but it's usually just a black square...i don't know what. sometimes i can hear them even when i turn around. they seem a little slow in that way. i feel them right now watching me type this. listening to elliott with me. i'm not sure what it is or why i'm not supposed to see them. sometimes i can see them without actually seeing them. i just saw them or it touch my leg when i took my hand away. but i didn't actually see anything. it's in my kitchen, the closet, on the stairs, leaning on my back. it makes me so dizzy spinning in circles looking for it.
everythings shape seems to shift when i look at it quickly or shortly. sometimes it it's an inflation. sometimes it's a "glitch". i don't want to think about what that means, i've seen glitches before and understanding them only lead to my unhappiness. sometimes ignorance is bliss. i'm a little scared.
i hear way too much.
DEAF AND DUMB AND DONE
WAITING FOR SEDATION TO DISCONNECT MY HEAD
OR ANY SITUATION WHERE I'M BETTER OFF THAN DEAD
everythings shape seems to shift when i look at it quickly or shortly. sometimes it it's an inflation. sometimes it's a "glitch". i don't want to think about what that means, i've seen glitches before and understanding them only lead to my unhappiness. sometimes ignorance is bliss. i'm a little scared.
i hear way too much.
DEAF AND DUMB AND DONE
WAITING FOR SEDATION TO DISCONNECT MY HEAD
OR ANY SITUATION WHERE I'M BETTER OFF THAN DEAD