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Wow...
Susan, the lady whom had horrible cancer died today. I loved her so much.. She fought off the cancer, living over 9 years of what she was suspected to like, not just curling up and dying. She thrived through the pain, and kept plugging along. I kept my sadness to myself while i was home.. and most of the game, i stayed totally quiet.. but then when sarah and i were waiting for daniel i just burst into tears, and began sobbing.. shes really gone. I looked up to susan, for her strength and innocence, but now shes gone, and she'll never come back.
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yes, school life was incredible today. I wasnt thinking of susan.. it kept me at peace. Tanner bought me an ipod, just because he cares so much that I care, i love my poptart so much <3, i get my ipod on sunday, and i'm naming him the poptart.. really incredible, the boys dad is a broker at one of those e-loan things, loaded like woah O_O
Matt gave me a muffin today at lunch O_o;; he sacrificed it for my enjoyment, it was blueberry, his favorite. he just dropped it off without a word, which is our genral communication, silence. Dance on friday, hopefully the funeral isnt then, i really hope not, i wouldnt mind a sturdy shoulder to cry on.
i felt really comforted by sarah.. shes usually a horribly non touchy feely person, but she really comforted me when i was sad, she put her arms around me and made me feel better, she gave me a messy tissue from her purse, and we talked about deaths in our familys, laughed alittle, then i tried to seem like i wasnt crying, but i had hoped I could have stayed over there the night, instead of being here, i always feel nervous when theres a death, afraid that someone might just open up to me, when i am already sad.. I suppose that makes me a weak person..
pardon this screwy post, but its my journal, i'll do what i please.
Susan, the lady whom had horrible cancer died today. I loved her so much.. She fought off the cancer, living over 9 years of what she was suspected to like, not just curling up and dying. She thrived through the pain, and kept plugging along. I kept my sadness to myself while i was home.. and most of the game, i stayed totally quiet.. but then when sarah and i were waiting for daniel i just burst into tears, and began sobbing.. shes really gone. I looked up to susan, for her strength and innocence, but now shes gone, and she'll never come back.
....
yes, school life was incredible today. I wasnt thinking of susan.. it kept me at peace. Tanner bought me an ipod, just because he cares so much that I care, i love my poptart so much <3, i get my ipod on sunday, and i'm naming him the poptart.. really incredible, the boys dad is a broker at one of those e-loan things, loaded like woah O_O
Matt gave me a muffin today at lunch O_o;; he sacrificed it for my enjoyment, it was blueberry, his favorite. he just dropped it off without a word, which is our genral communication, silence. Dance on friday, hopefully the funeral isnt then, i really hope not, i wouldnt mind a sturdy shoulder to cry on.
i felt really comforted by sarah.. shes usually a horribly non touchy feely person, but she really comforted me when i was sad, she put her arms around me and made me feel better, she gave me a messy tissue from her purse, and we talked about deaths in our familys, laughed alittle, then i tried to seem like i wasnt crying, but i had hoped I could have stayed over there the night, instead of being here, i always feel nervous when theres a death, afraid that someone might just open up to me, when i am already sad.. I suppose that makes me a weak person..
pardon this screwy post, but its my journal, i'll do what i please.