My honey loves me.
My husband's response (written on his LJ) to my last post:
Hi Hollz,
Remember when I used to refer to you as my BBKF? heh.
Anyway, I wanted to respond to what I saw that you wrote, but not in your comments. You're sleeping next to me right now; it' late. Well, not too late. If I get to bed soon then I would have still gotten several more hours of sleep than I did yesterday.
Your first commenter was right; it's not in any way dysfunctional to feel whatever it is that you feel. Making comparisons isn't really healthy either because how can you compare your existence/state of mind with any other individual? At least not without doing some awesome crazy brain melds/sharing bodies and crap. So, try not to be down on yourself for that, okay?
Also, the doctor thing maybe looks like a big deal, but it's not in the least, really. I imagine she did that because: She seems to be pretty green as far as doctors go, she misdiagnosed a pancreatits, which sent me to the hospital unnecessarily and if I had not gone, I wouldn't have gotten sick while I was there... And she just merged offices with her husband too, so who knows really what her motivations are exactly. She was just a primary anyway. I still have the three specialists, which are the big important ones, esp the kidney guy and the diabetes guy.
So next time I get a sinus infection or whatever, I'll go find a primary care doctor. I'm not too worried about it right now. Shit, I've gone long stretches without a doctor and insurance. For years, you know that. As long as I can still get my meds, I'll be fine.
So, everything will be okay. I mean, think about your whole life, and all of the fucked up shit that's happened. in the end, right now, everything is still okay right now, right? It's always okay, so, what would give you the impression that will ever change? (It won't).
So to summarize, Mario may jump over a pit and be hanging in mid air over a pit of lava. But in a second or two he always lands back on a pillar and everything is okay again. Unless I suppose, he falls into the lava. But that. really, is just a temporary set back. :)
Elephant shoe. :D
Hi Hollz,
Remember when I used to refer to you as my BBKF? heh.
Anyway, I wanted to respond to what I saw that you wrote, but not in your comments. You're sleeping next to me right now; it' late. Well, not too late. If I get to bed soon then I would have still gotten several more hours of sleep than I did yesterday.
Your first commenter was right; it's not in any way dysfunctional to feel whatever it is that you feel. Making comparisons isn't really healthy either because how can you compare your existence/state of mind with any other individual? At least not without doing some awesome crazy brain melds/sharing bodies and crap. So, try not to be down on yourself for that, okay?
Also, the doctor thing maybe looks like a big deal, but it's not in the least, really. I imagine she did that because: She seems to be pretty green as far as doctors go, she misdiagnosed a pancreatits, which sent me to the hospital unnecessarily and if I had not gone, I wouldn't have gotten sick while I was there... And she just merged offices with her husband too, so who knows really what her motivations are exactly. She was just a primary anyway. I still have the three specialists, which are the big important ones, esp the kidney guy and the diabetes guy.
So next time I get a sinus infection or whatever, I'll go find a primary care doctor. I'm not too worried about it right now. Shit, I've gone long stretches without a doctor and insurance. For years, you know that. As long as I can still get my meds, I'll be fine.
So, everything will be okay. I mean, think about your whole life, and all of the fucked up shit that's happened. in the end, right now, everything is still okay right now, right? It's always okay, so, what would give you the impression that will ever change? (It won't).
So to summarize, Mario may jump over a pit and be hanging in mid air over a pit of lava. But in a second or two he always lands back on a pillar and everything is okay again. Unless I suppose, he falls into the lava. But that. really, is just a temporary set back. :)
Elephant shoe. :D