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I think I need to face the fact that I'm sick and that WebMD can't really help me. I am in a near-constant state of lightheadedness (not an ache at all, though) which is sometimes accompanied by trouble breathing. Relaxing doesn't really help it either - even when I'm lying down I still feel like I need to lie down. It's more difficult than it should be to just hold my head up when I'm sitting around. I feel this way at random times and luckily it hasn't really affected work yet. It's kind of annoying to read when I'm feeling ill, so I end up watching a lot more shitty TV than I ever planned. If I have to sit through one more State Farm Insurance commercial I might just die. The worst part is that this is happening just when I was starting to feel really motivated - I mean, I want to do my absolute, genuine best in school this year since my GPA is resetting and I can finally reflect my enthusiasm for school and for my studies in my grades. But I know myself, and I am far more likely to find myself in a "fuck it, whatever" mood when I'm sick or tired. I'm hoping with everything that I go to the doctor, he tells me I have something that can be fixed with a prescription, and I'm an energized young person again. The weirdest part of this is, I'm really paranoid and afraid that this is all somehow related to my consumption of diet soda... for some reason.