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My life has been pretty hectic for the past couple of months or so.
Work is really burning me out. I've been working on the same two files for a month and a half now, and I feel the weight of not getting everything done quickly enough. For a week at the beginning of this month, TJ's car was out of commission, leading to some pretty crazy work transportation arrangements that stressed us both out and took a lot of our time.
One good thing is that he has started going to the gym with me. Since he has, I've lost four pounds. I guess I just needed another person to motivate me since I had been going alone for so long and getting burned out. My short-term goal is to lose 10 pounds. I'd feel so much better physically and mentally if I were closer to my usual size. I don't always feel completely terrible about it, but I am conscious of my body all of the time. I think a lot of my problems could be remedied if I started seeing myself differently. I'm glad I have a supportive husband who loves me for me because I don't always love myself the way that I should.
I have ten photo shoot booked next month. One the 6th, one the 13th, one the 27th and a group shoot for which I have 7 slots booked so far. I realize this probably won't help me feeling stressed out, but while the travel plans can to tiring, I really enjoy the act of modeling. I had a shoot this past weekend at Cooper's Rock. I am really excited to see the outcome because it was so beautiful up there.
I've been feeling down today -- emotional and whatnot. I guess I hate that I don't have a lot of time doing the things I love with the people I love because the weight of my responsibilities has gotten the better of me.
This year in Trenton's development has been particularly frustrating. He has had behavioral problems for several years now that have gotten worse. He isn't a bad child. He is sweet and loving. He just has trouble with authority, concentration and controlling himself. I have been fighting it, but I made him an appointment for Wednesday to discuss ADHD. I wasn't about to get him diagnosed when he was younger without knowing for sure he wasn't just being a normal child. ADHD is overly diagnosed and far too soon in some children, and I didn't want him to go through the pain of being one of those misdiagnosed. My sister-in-law went to get my nephew diagnosed at age 3, and I wanted to slap her. Hopefully, we get the answers we need, and it is something else I'd rather catch it at eight than later.
Also, Trenton has had homework every night since he's been in third grade, and it is always multiple assignments. I never had this much homework in third grade. I didn't have this level of work until I was in sixth grade. This does not better the situation we have with time or make it easier for our child to focus when he's doing homework for hours every evening and not getting to enjoy being a child or spending time with his family that doesn't involve a text book or worksheets.
I wish I could pile my family into a car and drive far away from here for a while -- away for the grade-school level drama of my work life and the stress of our daily schedules.
Work is really burning me out. I've been working on the same two files for a month and a half now, and I feel the weight of not getting everything done quickly enough. For a week at the beginning of this month, TJ's car was out of commission, leading to some pretty crazy work transportation arrangements that stressed us both out and took a lot of our time.
One good thing is that he has started going to the gym with me. Since he has, I've lost four pounds. I guess I just needed another person to motivate me since I had been going alone for so long and getting burned out. My short-term goal is to lose 10 pounds. I'd feel so much better physically and mentally if I were closer to my usual size. I don't always feel completely terrible about it, but I am conscious of my body all of the time. I think a lot of my problems could be remedied if I started seeing myself differently. I'm glad I have a supportive husband who loves me for me because I don't always love myself the way that I should.
I have ten photo shoot booked next month. One the 6th, one the 13th, one the 27th and a group shoot for which I have 7 slots booked so far. I realize this probably won't help me feeling stressed out, but while the travel plans can to tiring, I really enjoy the act of modeling. I had a shoot this past weekend at Cooper's Rock. I am really excited to see the outcome because it was so beautiful up there.
I've been feeling down today -- emotional and whatnot. I guess I hate that I don't have a lot of time doing the things I love with the people I love because the weight of my responsibilities has gotten the better of me.
This year in Trenton's development has been particularly frustrating. He has had behavioral problems for several years now that have gotten worse. He isn't a bad child. He is sweet and loving. He just has trouble with authority, concentration and controlling himself. I have been fighting it, but I made him an appointment for Wednesday to discuss ADHD. I wasn't about to get him diagnosed when he was younger without knowing for sure he wasn't just being a normal child. ADHD is overly diagnosed and far too soon in some children, and I didn't want him to go through the pain of being one of those misdiagnosed. My sister-in-law went to get my nephew diagnosed at age 3, and I wanted to slap her. Hopefully, we get the answers we need, and it is something else I'd rather catch it at eight than later.
Also, Trenton has had homework every night since he's been in third grade, and it is always multiple assignments. I never had this much homework in third grade. I didn't have this level of work until I was in sixth grade. This does not better the situation we have with time or make it easier for our child to focus when he's doing homework for hours every evening and not getting to enjoy being a child or spending time with his family that doesn't involve a text book or worksheets.
I wish I could pile my family into a car and drive far away from here for a while -- away for the grade-school level drama of my work life and the stress of our daily schedules.