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[plaguemachine]

I know that I care about things that I shouldn't way more than the reasonable misstep. I worry about things that most people don't think about on a regular basis. I let myself get so wrapped up what goes on in my head that I often miss what goes on in the world around me

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[baileysummers]

I'm offering up a hug and I can't empathsize really. I've always had this switch in my head that only allows me so much worry or nervousness then it just goes click and I'm thinking what's the point of freaking, It'll happen or not. But something will always happen.
It drives my friends nuts, It's happened ever since I was 11 and survived a major car wreck without a scratch. Yes I'm sure it's not healthy but it works for me. Not even the chance of dying gets me freaked for more than a short while. Many former SO's say I don't care, It's not that, it's just what is freaking out about things going to do. They get pissed when I don't freak out when they'd threaten to dump me. It pissed them off when I'd not really react when they did it. Never even cried over my Dad's funeral, or seeing him dead with all the tubes and life saving in him. That bothers me.
I do feel things though just not a lot of fear/worry. I hope you feel better. But I get the feeling of the being disconnected...It's kinda what I'm like when that switch goes off. I'd be happy if you and I could mix it together, You've got too much and I've got too little.

[plaguemachine]

I think that you can accept that there are things that are out of your control, whereas I struggle with the concept. I always want to be in control and have a hard time accepting that when something bad does happen, it will happen whether I exhausted myself worrying about it or not. It sucks because it impedes the decisions I make sometimes.

If we could mix it together, that would be awesome!