She's Gone.
Even though she did annoying things, sometimes, it still kills me that my friend went away. She was in my life so heavily for all of those years, and in an instant, she ran away because of something that wasn't even my fault. I didn't do anything to her. I didn't try to ruin her life. I never said a discouraging word to her. I supported her
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1.) The guy who told me about it could have lied in order to cover himself/the person it was most directly about. Which could be the case since he was wronging me at the time too.
2.) She was always real with me but was rarely real with herself. She would tell the world one thing and believe it while telling me her true feelings. My information threatened the fake life she created for herself.
3.) She told me at one point she was in love with me. I don't know if she believed that I told her what I did to sabotage her relationship so that could happen, but that definitely wasn't the case. Being in love with me also threatened the image she created. I suppose that she either believed the wrong people or thought the only way to kill her feelings for me was to demonize me.
I have run all of these scenarios through my head over the past few years, but I guess it doesn't matter in the end. Regardless of the fact that I feel it was injustice and I miss what was between us, it doesn't change what happened or how it happened. It's amazing how one conversation can completely undo four years of friendship out of nowhere. It wasn't like we were on bad terms. I guess that I was the only person she could choose to blame, since she wasn't willing to blame the right people.
Thank you for the good advice.
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