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It is my first shift of the week. I was beyond lazy this weekend. I remember going through a similar constant fatigue around this same time after I went off of birth control, only this has lasted just a few days, rather than a straight week. I spent time with martyrsdescent , cadesolitude , sweetjess23 and desdemona47 on Friday night. It was a lot of fun, but I had an episode where my lungs hurt...badly. I'm sure that my mind made it more than what it was because I was in an altered mental state, but I'm sure that some of it was a combination of air quality/temperature and my healing lungs. I will love to feel better. My allergies have been ridiculous this year, and they have been worse this past week. TJ has been going through the same thing. Other than that, I have been doing better -- less cravings, less instances of shortness of breath. Which leads me to the next piece of news....
IT HAS BEEN 4 WEEKS SINCE MY LAST CIGARETTE.
I am proud of myself for doing so well. I haven't cheated at all. Not even one drag. Not even drunk. I remind myself why I'm quitting any time I feel sad about it. I explained it to my dad that cigarettes are a friend that I love to visit in pictures, but not one I'd like to physically visit. I think that's a good place to be. It removes a lot of the risk of depression for having been without them.
Please check out my review of Nekromantix's "Return of the Loving Dead" at
afiend_reviews . Also, if you haven't friended that journal already and would like to read my music reviews, please do! LiveJournal loves telling me how much of a loser I am for having made only "x" number of friends. They may not be the best reviews, but it does feel nice to be doing something with my downtime.
I am gotten several offers for photoshoots in this past week -- five at my last count. This is great incentive to kick up my activity level and keep up with good eating habits. It also gives me an opportunity to become more comfortable with myself.
I feel that things are going to take positive turn soon. While I still have many old thoughts of anxiety, I think that life will continue to move in the right direction. For now, I am going to focus much of my energy into spending more time with Trenton and TJ.
I hope that TJ knows how much I love him, and I will definitely put more effort into making that something he cannot question.
As for those who do not (or rather, should not) matter:
I giggle at those who block me when I've done nothing to warrant it.
I think it's funny that no attention is being paid to the demise of our friendship, which just proves my point perfectly.
IT HAS BEEN 4 WEEKS SINCE MY LAST CIGARETTE.
I am proud of myself for doing so well. I haven't cheated at all. Not even one drag. Not even drunk. I remind myself why I'm quitting any time I feel sad about it. I explained it to my dad that cigarettes are a friend that I love to visit in pictures, but not one I'd like to physically visit. I think that's a good place to be. It removes a lot of the risk of depression for having been without them.
Please check out my review of Nekromantix's "Return of the Loving Dead" at
afiend_reviews . Also, if you haven't friended that journal already and would like to read my music reviews, please do! LiveJournal loves telling me how much of a loser I am for having made only "x" number of friends. They may not be the best reviews, but it does feel nice to be doing something with my downtime.
I am gotten several offers for photoshoots in this past week -- five at my last count. This is great incentive to kick up my activity level and keep up with good eating habits. It also gives me an opportunity to become more comfortable with myself.
I feel that things are going to take positive turn soon. While I still have many old thoughts of anxiety, I think that life will continue to move in the right direction. For now, I am going to focus much of my energy into spending more time with Trenton and TJ.
I hope that TJ knows how much I love him, and I will definitely put more effort into making that something he cannot question.
As for those who do not (or rather, should not) matter:
I giggle at those who block me when I've done nothing to warrant it.
I think it's funny that no attention is being paid to the demise of our friendship, which just proves my point perfectly.