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What better time of day is there to update than almost 4 a.m.?
I have been slowly, but surely, doing better. My anxiety started to subside prior to quitting cigarettes, peaked again once I went off and now, I'm starting to even back out again. I often find myself falling into old traps. I am anxious everyday, and I cling to obsessive thoughts that I shouldn't. I would say that I'm probably more grounded now. I just need to remember to apply things I learned in therapy. It is those principles that will help me break free of this entirely. I have been able to avoid/shorten panic attacks in the past few months. My mind doesn't enjoy this development, but I will not allow anxiety to win. I've got too many good things in my life. It's time I start living again.
I love my husband, my son, my family and friends. I have been taking steps to eliminate the bad influences in my life. I would like to close the door on a lot of things that caused me nothing but grief. My self-esteem fluctuates regularly, but I'm trying to work that out. I want to be able to enjoy my life the way that I had previously and to an even greater level, free of constant fear, worry and paranoia. I think that I am on the right track with a lot of things even though there are a lot of things going on in my life right now that could be potentially very stressful, the financial situation being the largest strain. I try to remain optimistic that that situation will work itself out in the next month or so.
Once it does, we'll finally be able to move into the new house, which is almost completely finished now. It'll be nice to have my life change in such a positive way.
I've been enjoying mornings after work with TJ and the brief time with Trenton before he goes to school. This past morning, I enjoyed it so much, I prolonged sleeping until 9:30. It was startling to be having such a good time.
I have been slowly, but surely, doing better. My anxiety started to subside prior to quitting cigarettes, peaked again once I went off and now, I'm starting to even back out again. I often find myself falling into old traps. I am anxious everyday, and I cling to obsessive thoughts that I shouldn't. I would say that I'm probably more grounded now. I just need to remember to apply things I learned in therapy. It is those principles that will help me break free of this entirely. I have been able to avoid/shorten panic attacks in the past few months. My mind doesn't enjoy this development, but I will not allow anxiety to win. I've got too many good things in my life. It's time I start living again.
I love my husband, my son, my family and friends. I have been taking steps to eliminate the bad influences in my life. I would like to close the door on a lot of things that caused me nothing but grief. My self-esteem fluctuates regularly, but I'm trying to work that out. I want to be able to enjoy my life the way that I had previously and to an even greater level, free of constant fear, worry and paranoia. I think that I am on the right track with a lot of things even though there are a lot of things going on in my life right now that could be potentially very stressful, the financial situation being the largest strain. I try to remain optimistic that that situation will work itself out in the next month or so.
Once it does, we'll finally be able to move into the new house, which is almost completely finished now. It'll be nice to have my life change in such a positive way.
I've been enjoying mornings after work with TJ and the brief time with Trenton before he goes to school. This past morning, I enjoyed it so much, I prolonged sleeping until 9:30. It was startling to be having such a good time.