Bah!
::sigh:: I don't know what's been wrong with me lately. I've just been so "blah" and feeling icky, and I don't know why. I'm so...ugh! I don't even know, and I think that it's what's frustrating me most!!! Just the fact that something's bothering me and I have NO idea what it is.
::ears perk up:: Ooh, a gay guy idolizing Paula on AI...that should put me in a better mood...Oh, my. Now he's scaring her.
Sorry, focus now, Alyssa. Anyway, I'm just now so happy with the way things are going right now. I think it has a lot to do with me being "lonely", and before ya'll start to think I'm a pathetic sap, just let me explain...
Everywhere I look anymore, it's like there's couples EVERYWHERE rubbing my single-ness in my face. I know a lot of people feel this way, so I'm trying not to let it bother me so much. But it does! It bothers me a lot! I think most of it has to do with me not being used to being single. I mean, I had a boyfriend for a year and a half...I didn't have to worry about "the trials of the single". But now, I guess it's finally starting to kick in because all my friends have that "significant other". I guess I'm in their place now...I understand how they felt when they saw me with Chris or Leon.
The thing is, I REALLY like this guy at my school. I've liked him for quite some time now. I'm even starting to get all girly when I talk to him and shit, and when I get girly and giddy, that's a sign that I really like him. I just feel like I haven't got a chance with him! And it sucks. I'm not just saying "I don't have a chance" because I'm trying to get someone to tell me that I "deserve anyone I want" type corny shit. I seriously don't think I do. He's older than me for one, and older guys don't exactly throw themselves at me at GHHS. So why should he, ya know? Plus, there's this stupid blonde bitch who he talks to, and I'm totally jealous (girly sign #1), which is stupid and catty of me. I just hate liking a guy that I can't have.
Ok, so this entry is lame and pathetic...but we all are at one point, and this is a journal for Christ's sake! So I HAVE THE RIGHT to be lame and pathetic and catty...I guess.
::sigh::
P.S. I hate Valentine's Day too, Jessie! Much Love! *pound-y chest thing*
::ears perk up:: Ooh, a gay guy idolizing Paula on AI...that should put me in a better mood...Oh, my. Now he's scaring her.
Sorry, focus now, Alyssa. Anyway, I'm just now so happy with the way things are going right now. I think it has a lot to do with me being "lonely", and before ya'll start to think I'm a pathetic sap, just let me explain...
Everywhere I look anymore, it's like there's couples EVERYWHERE rubbing my single-ness in my face. I know a lot of people feel this way, so I'm trying not to let it bother me so much. But it does! It bothers me a lot! I think most of it has to do with me not being used to being single. I mean, I had a boyfriend for a year and a half...I didn't have to worry about "the trials of the single". But now, I guess it's finally starting to kick in because all my friends have that "significant other". I guess I'm in their place now...I understand how they felt when they saw me with Chris or Leon.
The thing is, I REALLY like this guy at my school. I've liked him for quite some time now. I'm even starting to get all girly when I talk to him and shit, and when I get girly and giddy, that's a sign that I really like him. I just feel like I haven't got a chance with him! And it sucks. I'm not just saying "I don't have a chance" because I'm trying to get someone to tell me that I "deserve anyone I want" type corny shit. I seriously don't think I do. He's older than me for one, and older guys don't exactly throw themselves at me at GHHS. So why should he, ya know? Plus, there's this stupid blonde bitch who he talks to, and I'm totally jealous (girly sign #1), which is stupid and catty of me. I just hate liking a guy that I can't have.
Ok, so this entry is lame and pathetic...but we all are at one point, and this is a journal for Christ's sake! So I HAVE THE RIGHT to be lame and pathetic and catty...I guess.
::sigh::
P.S. I hate Valentine's Day too, Jessie! Much Love! *pound-y chest thing*