Parents suck.
So yesterday was the recital. I was nervous as hell. I woke up at 7:15, took a shower...started doing my hair at 7:45. I didn't finish my hair until 11. How pathetic is that? Then I praticed forever until we left. Then I forgot my music and had to call my dad to bring it with him when he came. He got all pissed.
Then we went to Chris' house and picked him up and left for the church. My mom was making fun of me because I was "whining" about how nervous I was. Then we got there and I was still nervous and I was already screwing everything up by making Bekah cry. Chris was trying to make me un-nervous by telling me I'll do great and sweet stuff like that...but it didn't work. I was still nervous and my leg was shaking. Chris tried to make it stop but it wouldn't.
I was the 13th person that was playing and Kyle was being a jerk and said "Oh, 13 is bad luck" and then my mom told him to shut up and then he said "Well, I guess is a church it doesn't count". I was so freaking nervous I was about to pass out. It seemed like freaking forever til it was my turn. I finally went up there and Kory was saying something to me. I didn't listen to him and I just started playing. I guess I did ok. But I screwed up this one part. Everyone said they didn't notice. But whatever. I twas really embarrassing because my right leg was shaking every time I put pressure on it. So every time I would push down the pettle, it would shake like crazy. No one noticed except for Kory.
I got done and guess who's right after me? Jessica. Most of you people don't know this, but everytime I perform somewhere, there's always Jessica who does better than me. She was singing and playing "Goodbye To You" and my whole freaking family just forgot about the mess I played and moved on to Jess who did "so good". That made me kind of upset because I did terrible and she did better like she always does. I was about to cry, but Chris is really sweet and comforted me. There was this one girl who played and sang "A Woman's Worth" and she was AWESOME! Seriously she was WAY better than Jessica.
Me and Chris walked around for a while. Did some...stuff. And then the rcital was over and we got food and drinks and stuff. Then my mom wanted to go out to dinner. I was like "Noooo!!!" Because I knew that they would just talk bad about me. So we went to Red Lobster and my mom kept on saying how I was an "underachiever" and a "drama queen" and was all trying to get Chris to agree with her. Then my dad kept on going on about how good Jessica was and how she "blew him away" and shit. Well, when I practice my song, everyone in my whole freaking house hears is because the piano is in the middle of the fucking house. So they always hear me and thy get sick of my song. But Jessica always practices in her room so they don't hear her and they don't know that she sounds like crap. So it wasn't fair.
We were driving Chris home and me and him we in the back. He put his arm around me cuz I guess he could tell I was upset. He told me that I looked beautiful and some more really sweet stuff. That made me feel a lot better and I just kinda blocked out Jess and my mom and just listened to Chris. Then we met his mom, and she was really nice. Then I went home and cried a lot because I suck at the piano and I never want to do another recital again.
Then we went to Chris' house and picked him up and left for the church. My mom was making fun of me because I was "whining" about how nervous I was. Then we got there and I was still nervous and I was already screwing everything up by making Bekah cry. Chris was trying to make me un-nervous by telling me I'll do great and sweet stuff like that...but it didn't work. I was still nervous and my leg was shaking. Chris tried to make it stop but it wouldn't.
I was the 13th person that was playing and Kyle was being a jerk and said "Oh, 13 is bad luck" and then my mom told him to shut up and then he said "Well, I guess is a church it doesn't count". I was so freaking nervous I was about to pass out. It seemed like freaking forever til it was my turn. I finally went up there and Kory was saying something to me. I didn't listen to him and I just started playing. I guess I did ok. But I screwed up this one part. Everyone said they didn't notice. But whatever. I twas really embarrassing because my right leg was shaking every time I put pressure on it. So every time I would push down the pettle, it would shake like crazy. No one noticed except for Kory.
I got done and guess who's right after me? Jessica. Most of you people don't know this, but everytime I perform somewhere, there's always Jessica who does better than me. She was singing and playing "Goodbye To You" and my whole freaking family just forgot about the mess I played and moved on to Jess who did "so good". That made me kind of upset because I did terrible and she did better like she always does. I was about to cry, but Chris is really sweet and comforted me. There was this one girl who played and sang "A Woman's Worth" and she was AWESOME! Seriously she was WAY better than Jessica.
Me and Chris walked around for a while. Did some...stuff. And then the rcital was over and we got food and drinks and stuff. Then my mom wanted to go out to dinner. I was like "Noooo!!!" Because I knew that they would just talk bad about me. So we went to Red Lobster and my mom kept on saying how I was an "underachiever" and a "drama queen" and was all trying to get Chris to agree with her. Then my dad kept on going on about how good Jessica was and how she "blew him away" and shit. Well, when I practice my song, everyone in my whole freaking house hears is because the piano is in the middle of the fucking house. So they always hear me and thy get sick of my song. But Jessica always practices in her room so they don't hear her and they don't know that she sounds like crap. So it wasn't fair.
We were driving Chris home and me and him we in the back. He put his arm around me cuz I guess he could tell I was upset. He told me that I looked beautiful and some more really sweet stuff. That made me feel a lot better and I just kinda blocked out Jess and my mom and just listened to Chris. Then we met his mom, and she was really nice. Then I went home and cried a lot because I suck at the piano and I never want to do another recital again.