Lali-ho!
My dog never shuts up.. he barks at anything he sees, and spends HOURS crying because my dad is somewhere else in the house that he can't see.. I have a headache just from the sound of it and I have no idea how to get him to stop.. the best solution I have come up with is to just put on my headphones and listen to loud music, and write in my journal and spill all of my thoughts down..
I made a persuasive speech on Thursday on Florida's Gay Adoption ban, and why I was against it.. From an objective point of view, it was a good speech, and I was unable to see any flaws with any of my arguments that I spent hours upon hours developing and precisely wording.. I had the chance to make the speech on Tuesday but I didn't want to (it meant going second out of the entire class), so instead on Thursday, which was the very last day to make these, I went and was the very last to go. Of course, the sweet old man teacher who has a heart of soft gold is letting the speakers finish up on Tuesday, but I was scared he wouldn't.. He gives us four days of class time to speak, and if not in those four days we finish then theoretically everyone who doesn't go gets a 0. But he compromised this rule because he cares for us so much..
For anyone that I know reading this journal, I have to plead with you about something. If something is wrong and you want my help, please don't just ignore me.. if I can tell something's wrong and I offer to help you, don't lie and say nothing's wrong, and make me feel like crap because you're hurting and I can't even get close to you to show you that even if I can't solve your problems for you I still love you.. if I've hurt you, I can guarantee it was not something intentional, so don't tell me you're angry with me and ignore me and hurt me more than you'll ever know, not if you care the slightest bit about me.. don't ignore me period.. The worst problem I have had is people just without a word getting up and leaving me. My mother did it when she died, and this isn't her fault, it just hurts when this happens to me.. someone else did it to me when I gave them the most unique love I know of, and friends have done it because they don't want to talk to me anymore.. I just want people to be honest with me.. I don't want them ignoring me or leaving me.. if you have to tell me that I annoy you, I'll be a little upset, but that'll heal because I'll know you're fine, and I won't have scars for life wondering why my friend can tell me they love me one day and the next leave me forever.
Every individual person's life has their own path, predestined or not.. I'm looking for the person(s) with whom my path is intertwined.. I want it to be everybody I meet.. I want to take them all and put them in a mansion in which there's no pain, in which I can see them any time I want and love them and have them be okay, instead of having them leave and get hurt, get lost, never speak to me again.. it is hard to accept the fact that no matter how much I love somebody bad things are going to happen to them.. that I am powerless to fate..
...And I want people to hug me more IRL! Not that any IRL friends of mine know of this journal, which is really a good thing.. but I don't identify myself anyway, nor do I identify most of if any of the people I refer to.. I'm like some kind of secret agent who's mission is to live =P
I made a persuasive speech on Thursday on Florida's Gay Adoption ban, and why I was against it.. From an objective point of view, it was a good speech, and I was unable to see any flaws with any of my arguments that I spent hours upon hours developing and precisely wording.. I had the chance to make the speech on Tuesday but I didn't want to (it meant going second out of the entire class), so instead on Thursday, which was the very last day to make these, I went and was the very last to go. Of course, the sweet old man teacher who has a heart of soft gold is letting the speakers finish up on Tuesday, but I was scared he wouldn't.. He gives us four days of class time to speak, and if not in those four days we finish then theoretically everyone who doesn't go gets a 0. But he compromised this rule because he cares for us so much..
For anyone that I know reading this journal, I have to plead with you about something. If something is wrong and you want my help, please don't just ignore me.. if I can tell something's wrong and I offer to help you, don't lie and say nothing's wrong, and make me feel like crap because you're hurting and I can't even get close to you to show you that even if I can't solve your problems for you I still love you.. if I've hurt you, I can guarantee it was not something intentional, so don't tell me you're angry with me and ignore me and hurt me more than you'll ever know, not if you care the slightest bit about me.. don't ignore me period.. The worst problem I have had is people just without a word getting up and leaving me. My mother did it when she died, and this isn't her fault, it just hurts when this happens to me.. someone else did it to me when I gave them the most unique love I know of, and friends have done it because they don't want to talk to me anymore.. I just want people to be honest with me.. I don't want them ignoring me or leaving me.. if you have to tell me that I annoy you, I'll be a little upset, but that'll heal because I'll know you're fine, and I won't have scars for life wondering why my friend can tell me they love me one day and the next leave me forever.
Every individual person's life has their own path, predestined or not.. I'm looking for the person(s) with whom my path is intertwined.. I want it to be everybody I meet.. I want to take them all and put them in a mansion in which there's no pain, in which I can see them any time I want and love them and have them be okay, instead of having them leave and get hurt, get lost, never speak to me again.. it is hard to accept the fact that no matter how much I love somebody bad things are going to happen to them.. that I am powerless to fate..
...And I want people to hug me more IRL! Not that any IRL friends of mine know of this journal, which is really a good thing.. but I don't identify myself anyway, nor do I identify most of if any of the people I refer to.. I'm like some kind of secret agent who's mission is to live =P