30 Minute update
Yeah, I know I’m late with this one. I’m not sure how late though because I’ve loss all sense of time, and I don’t have any to go back and look it up. I’m trying to write all of this entry in less than 30 minutes, so it’s going to seem a little rushed since it’s mostly just stream of consciousness. So the plan is going, but not as well as I’d like. The biggest problem I’m having is finding the time to apply to these “other jobs.” Basically, I get one day off a week, and what usually happens is that I sleep in to noon on that day, then spend the rest of the day catching up on house cleaning, bills, or shopping. Despite this, I have made some headway on the job search, but I haven’t got to the point where I’ve applied to anything yet. I’m trying to wake myself up earlier so that I can work on things in the morning before work, and that has met with some success. And if my budgeting is correct, I will have sometime in September where I’m not working as much, but I can still live off what I’ve earned to make ends met. So if worse comes to worse, I’ll have nothing but time to look for another job. I’m pretty committed to staying in the area though, so maybe that will make things easier.
As for my current job, I don’t know. The actual job is easy enough, it’s just everything surrounding it that sucks. The hours are long, and the pay is low, but I knew that going into it. But now the parking lot has been flooded for the last week, and management has no idea what to do with the underlings who have to drive to work everyday. Now we have to park offsite and take a shuttle into work. It basically means I have to spend more time getting to and from work, which means less time for everything else. I’m also getting less hours too. I don’t really want to go into why, but suffice to say it’s not my fault (it’s happening to everyone in my area) and it should only be temporary. You would think this would be good for me, and it is. However, on the other hand, my budget is pretty tight. If I only get 40 hours a week, I’ll barely be able to make ends meet. 50 hours a week is what I use for planning, and 55 to 60 is what I usually get. And the budget for this next month is already pretty tight. Other than that, I’m doing very well in the job. I got employee of the week status last week. Of course, I’d me more concerned if I wasn’t doing well.
To end on a more positive note, I haven’t been really depressed since I moved here. I don’t really have the time to be. The worst I get is disappointed in myself that I’m working a job at a time in my life where I should be in bigger and better things. Sometimes that makes me angry, sometimes I feel I’m just stupid, other times it just makes me sad. It’s frustrating that I don’t have my act together at this point in my life. Of course, I’m also feeling that underlying anxiety about what I’m going to do when September comes. But I know that I don’t have to sit here and be passive about everything. I can take action and do something. Unfortunately due to time restrictions, something is going to have to give, and that’s going to be these updates. I’m not going to quit exactly, but being late is going to be the norm for a while. Honestly, it’s really hard to write these when I know I can be using that time to do other things, like cleaning or job hunting. And this isn’t the first thing I had to cut back on. I don’t really cook that much anymore, and I don’t exercise anymore, and I hardly ever ride my bike. I still play video games, but mainly at work during my break. And my podcast backlog is mighty indeed.
Wow, I can really drone on for 30 minutes. Though to be honest, it was more like 35 minutes.
As for my current job, I don’t know. The actual job is easy enough, it’s just everything surrounding it that sucks. The hours are long, and the pay is low, but I knew that going into it. But now the parking lot has been flooded for the last week, and management has no idea what to do with the underlings who have to drive to work everyday. Now we have to park offsite and take a shuttle into work. It basically means I have to spend more time getting to and from work, which means less time for everything else. I’m also getting less hours too. I don’t really want to go into why, but suffice to say it’s not my fault (it’s happening to everyone in my area) and it should only be temporary. You would think this would be good for me, and it is. However, on the other hand, my budget is pretty tight. If I only get 40 hours a week, I’ll barely be able to make ends meet. 50 hours a week is what I use for planning, and 55 to 60 is what I usually get. And the budget for this next month is already pretty tight. Other than that, I’m doing very well in the job. I got employee of the week status last week. Of course, I’d me more concerned if I wasn’t doing well.
To end on a more positive note, I haven’t been really depressed since I moved here. I don’t really have the time to be. The worst I get is disappointed in myself that I’m working a job at a time in my life where I should be in bigger and better things. Sometimes that makes me angry, sometimes I feel I’m just stupid, other times it just makes me sad. It’s frustrating that I don’t have my act together at this point in my life. Of course, I’m also feeling that underlying anxiety about what I’m going to do when September comes. But I know that I don’t have to sit here and be passive about everything. I can take action and do something. Unfortunately due to time restrictions, something is going to have to give, and that’s going to be these updates. I’m not going to quit exactly, but being late is going to be the norm for a while. Honestly, it’s really hard to write these when I know I can be using that time to do other things, like cleaning or job hunting. And this isn’t the first thing I had to cut back on. I don’t really cook that much anymore, and I don’t exercise anymore, and I hardly ever ride my bike. I still play video games, but mainly at work during my break. And my podcast backlog is mighty indeed.
Wow, I can really drone on for 30 minutes. Though to be honest, it was more like 35 minutes.