Still Going
So as of next week, I'll have been here for four months, tying Japan for the longest time I've ever lived anywhere that wasn't Wisconsin. Almost to commemorate this achievement, I finished off my last bottle of Spotted Cow I brought with me last night. Unless someone somehow brings me more, it will be my last until I return to Wisconsin, which probably won't be until December. Moreover, I haven't left the city in that entire time, and I think that's a first for me. Of course, not having a car kind of makes that a little hard to leave, though even with a car, where would I go? I'm not quite sure what to think about this entire situation. I've made no secret that I'm not overly fond of this town or area. My jobs okay, though I'm clearly underemployed. The worst part is that I won't know if this was worth it until after I leave. Until then, I must keep moving on.
I guess this is what you call a sacrifice. I knew this goal wouldn't be easy going into it. I knew I would have to be willing to go anywhere in order to get badly needed experience. Realistically, my situation could be worse. I could have ended up in an even more remote, smaller town. Still, I this is not a place I would ever choose to live if I could help it, and I am gone as soon as my job here ends, maybe earlier if I can arrange another job somewhere else. I guess my greatest fear right now is that I've made a big mistake. There are many times when I think that embarking on this career path and going back to grad school were a costly mistake. Mostly this happens after I look at what I have to pay back for student loans. It doesn't assuage my fears to hear how hard it is out there for most people my age. Over half of the people in my age group are unemployed or underemployed. And I'm in a competitive field to begin with. How can I succeed? I have to admit, giving up looks very appealing at times.
But I'm stubborn, and I don't want to give up without a fight. All I can do is try to push ahead. I haven't been looking for new jobs for five months now, but I know that I should start soon. If I can use my time here wisely, and with a little luck, maybe I can arrange something for me. Another internship is probably out of the question, but I wouldn't turn down another short term job offer. All I can do is try. Maybe I should also broadened my horizon in terms of job searching as well. I really should think bigger. Maybe I should start looking for jobs in cities I want to live in…
In other news, went to a bunch of movies last week. Avengers, obvious, but I also went to the live This American Life event too. Avengers was a lot of fun, but I think TAL was better for my soul. It's been raining a lot this week, which is strange for this area. It's made biking to work extra sucky, but I haven't relented yet! Only have one more episode of Breaking Bad before I'm caught up with the rest of the world. I finished Professor Layton and the Last Sepctor, though I still have a few more puzzles I can do. I'll probably start Mario and Luigi: Bowser's Inside Story next. Also want to replay a bunch of Zelda games in preparation for the Zelda concert next month. Really want to play Wind Waker again, but I don't have it with me. So I'll probably just settle for giving Twilight Princess another go. I didn't like it all that much the first time I played it, but maybe I'll like it more on a second play through.
I guess this is what you call a sacrifice. I knew this goal wouldn't be easy going into it. I knew I would have to be willing to go anywhere in order to get badly needed experience. Realistically, my situation could be worse. I could have ended up in an even more remote, smaller town. Still, I this is not a place I would ever choose to live if I could help it, and I am gone as soon as my job here ends, maybe earlier if I can arrange another job somewhere else. I guess my greatest fear right now is that I've made a big mistake. There are many times when I think that embarking on this career path and going back to grad school were a costly mistake. Mostly this happens after I look at what I have to pay back for student loans. It doesn't assuage my fears to hear how hard it is out there for most people my age. Over half of the people in my age group are unemployed or underemployed. And I'm in a competitive field to begin with. How can I succeed? I have to admit, giving up looks very appealing at times.
But I'm stubborn, and I don't want to give up without a fight. All I can do is try to push ahead. I haven't been looking for new jobs for five months now, but I know that I should start soon. If I can use my time here wisely, and with a little luck, maybe I can arrange something for me. Another internship is probably out of the question, but I wouldn't turn down another short term job offer. All I can do is try. Maybe I should also broadened my horizon in terms of job searching as well. I really should think bigger. Maybe I should start looking for jobs in cities I want to live in…
In other news, went to a bunch of movies last week. Avengers, obvious, but I also went to the live This American Life event too. Avengers was a lot of fun, but I think TAL was better for my soul. It's been raining a lot this week, which is strange for this area. It's made biking to work extra sucky, but I haven't relented yet! Only have one more episode of Breaking Bad before I'm caught up with the rest of the world. I finished Professor Layton and the Last Sepctor, though I still have a few more puzzles I can do. I'll probably start Mario and Luigi: Bowser's Inside Story next. Also want to replay a bunch of Zelda games in preparation for the Zelda concert next month. Really want to play Wind Waker again, but I don't have it with me. So I'll probably just settle for giving Twilight Princess another go. I didn't like it all that much the first time I played it, but maybe I'll like it more on a second play through.