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so why is it that i feel guilty for looking at other girls when im not even dating anyone? i dont understand this at all. why do am i still head over heels for someone when i dont even know that they feel the same way? i mean people have told me she does. hell shes even told me she does. why cant i be with her? i dont care what any of you think of her so please keep that to yourself. i just want to be happy. i want to live in a perfect world. i want her to be better. i want her to be with me. i want to be able to say this is my girlfriend (name withheld). i cant even classify what we are. we're not just friends i can tell you that. why does the goddess have it out for me. what the fuck did i do that was so wrong? why do i trust girls to not fuck with my head when they always do? there were only three girls that never fucked with my head. just so that you all know who i'm talking about they were Annie, Stephanie, and Jillian. i mean come on why the fuck does this shit always happen to me? am i that bad of a person. am i that bad of a boyfriend? i know i fucked up in the past. is this still my 3 fold punishment? whatever i'm going to sleep finally