woo....
Its 544 in the morning. I finished playing fifa at 3. I could have gone to bed then. I didnt.
I filmed proff going up and down the hall in his wheelchair piss drunk while hitting each side of the hall way on the ways up and down.
I have realized that Self Esteem by the offspring relates directly to me. That scares me that no matter what happens to me, I still cannot let go of things that i believe are lost. I am having a personality and moral crisis that really questions my well being one way or the other.
And I just thought of another time previous to this where I really fucked up bad. Yeah, thats great.
Craig was wasted tonight. I really need to talk to him when hes sober. Maybe I can talk to him about all of this. If I talk to Kailee, she might yell at me lol.
I just remembered how funny of a word "asshat" is. Haha.
I kind of wonder what it would be like if I got high. Man, that would be crazy. I dont want my friends to get mad at me if I ever did. And I think if I did it, I would have to do it with a close friend. Getting stoned would be a bad idea.
Whatever I do to deal with the situation, I have to stick to it. I already made a decision, but I am having trouble sticking to it. Seriously, I dont get myself at all. Someone has to notice that I have some depression problems. But the thing is is that I will never go to a psychiatrist again. EVER. I will also never take anti-depressants again. Fuck that shit. Bad shit.
I havent heard from, or heard about jocelyn in forever. I hope shes okay.
Why do I hope for things to get better all the time even after they have gotten fucked beyond repair already? I dont get me at all.
None of this is in order, mind you. I am just writing down what im thinking as usual.
I need to utilize my bruins shot glasses.
ugh, idk why im up now. so im going to bed.
Good night.
I filmed proff going up and down the hall in his wheelchair piss drunk while hitting each side of the hall way on the ways up and down.
I have realized that Self Esteem by the offspring relates directly to me. That scares me that no matter what happens to me, I still cannot let go of things that i believe are lost. I am having a personality and moral crisis that really questions my well being one way or the other.
And I just thought of another time previous to this where I really fucked up bad. Yeah, thats great.
Craig was wasted tonight. I really need to talk to him when hes sober. Maybe I can talk to him about all of this. If I talk to Kailee, she might yell at me lol.
I just remembered how funny of a word "asshat" is. Haha.
I kind of wonder what it would be like if I got high. Man, that would be crazy. I dont want my friends to get mad at me if I ever did. And I think if I did it, I would have to do it with a close friend. Getting stoned would be a bad idea.
Whatever I do to deal with the situation, I have to stick to it. I already made a decision, but I am having trouble sticking to it. Seriously, I dont get myself at all. Someone has to notice that I have some depression problems. But the thing is is that I will never go to a psychiatrist again. EVER. I will also never take anti-depressants again. Fuck that shit. Bad shit.
I havent heard from, or heard about jocelyn in forever. I hope shes okay.
Why do I hope for things to get better all the time even after they have gotten fucked beyond repair already? I dont get me at all.
None of this is in order, mind you. I am just writing down what im thinking as usual.
I need to utilize my bruins shot glasses.
ugh, idk why im up now. so im going to bed.
Good night.