Did I tell you I need you?
What a week. Terrible. I got sick after having an amazing time in Boston. My stomach has gotten fucked up so bad that I cannot drink until thanksgiving. Not a big deal, but I am worried. I can no longer drink liquor, it fucks up my stomach too much. I cant wait til I get medicine. It will be so much better when I get a prescription. I know how Kurt Cobain felt.
I got behind on work, and I had to rush to finish my english paper, and I had no time to study for my western civ test thats friday. I cant wait til next week, when school gets easier.
And my grandfather is declining. That is not good at all. We now have to convince my Nana that its best for her to move up here, so she isnt stranded in Florida with him. And to be honest, if something happened to him, I am not sure that I could do the plane ride. This whole situation has been going around in my mind alot lately. This decision by my Nana will change my life no matter what she says. Its gonna be tough in the next couple years....please God make it easy for us, and preferably long while he still has it all together. Im really gonna need my friends support.
Alzheimers is a bitch, and I vow to beat it into submission when I get it. I will not let that disease take a hold on me.
I remember a couple summers ago, I wrote about how one week in july was the worst week of my life for a bunch of things (big issues with girls, family, and prolly some other shit.) I had to delete that entry because it got me in trouble with a girl afterwards, but I remember it, and how it sucked, and how it still can be applied to now, especially with my grandparents possibly coming up here. Everyone knows the girl situation, and thats not important now. I wrote in that entry how my grandparents werent there for me as a child. Well, I have to come through for them now. I have to be the bigger person. This isnt about conflicts, its about family. Its about love. I have to do my damndest to get through this with as much patience as I can. This is nothing right now. But in the future its gonna be real tough. I have to show that I am mature enough to put aside my issues, and really appreciate this final time I will have with at least him. It sucks to think about that this is it, or that it will be it. But I guess this is how life goes. I hope my sister will appreciate the time we will have with them. I know shes as frustrated with them as I was at her age, but we gotta show up, we gotta be the good kids, and put it all behind us.
Here we go. Lets hope this isnt gonna be as painful to deal with as I think it is. At least all of us will have the support structure of each other to deal with however long we will deal.
I love my grandfather, it sucks to see this disease take him away from me.
Im not even worried about my test tomorrow. I am worried about the family stuff. It comes first.
I got behind on work, and I had to rush to finish my english paper, and I had no time to study for my western civ test thats friday. I cant wait til next week, when school gets easier.
And my grandfather is declining. That is not good at all. We now have to convince my Nana that its best for her to move up here, so she isnt stranded in Florida with him. And to be honest, if something happened to him, I am not sure that I could do the plane ride. This whole situation has been going around in my mind alot lately. This decision by my Nana will change my life no matter what she says. Its gonna be tough in the next couple years....please God make it easy for us, and preferably long while he still has it all together. Im really gonna need my friends support.
Alzheimers is a bitch, and I vow to beat it into submission when I get it. I will not let that disease take a hold on me.
I remember a couple summers ago, I wrote about how one week in july was the worst week of my life for a bunch of things (big issues with girls, family, and prolly some other shit.) I had to delete that entry because it got me in trouble with a girl afterwards, but I remember it, and how it sucked, and how it still can be applied to now, especially with my grandparents possibly coming up here. Everyone knows the girl situation, and thats not important now. I wrote in that entry how my grandparents werent there for me as a child. Well, I have to come through for them now. I have to be the bigger person. This isnt about conflicts, its about family. Its about love. I have to do my damndest to get through this with as much patience as I can. This is nothing right now. But in the future its gonna be real tough. I have to show that I am mature enough to put aside my issues, and really appreciate this final time I will have with at least him. It sucks to think about that this is it, or that it will be it. But I guess this is how life goes. I hope my sister will appreciate the time we will have with them. I know shes as frustrated with them as I was at her age, but we gotta show up, we gotta be the good kids, and put it all behind us.
Here we go. Lets hope this isnt gonna be as painful to deal with as I think it is. At least all of us will have the support structure of each other to deal with however long we will deal.
I love my grandfather, it sucks to see this disease take him away from me.
Im not even worried about my test tomorrow. I am worried about the family stuff. It comes first.