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i am so sick of trying to put up this fake, non-caring front. cuz honestly i was hurt, and by someone i really trusted. do you have any idea what it would be like to be betrayed by the person u trust with your life? oh, well i do. i can't believe you'd have the nerve to lead me on, then go on about how we had NOTHING, and then have the nerve to say "i'm over you" (even thought there was "nothing there"). i am so sick of this contradicting crap, can u be anymore of a hypocrite rajan? do u even care? do u care that i cared? apparently not and i can't even deal with it. I see all these other potential guys and wonder, and they gonna do the same thing? are they gonna sweet talk me, tell me i'm one of a kind then act like there was nothing there and that i didn't mean anything to them? or maybe you know, i'm just gonna be another girl on their list...
i'm so confused, i don't know if i still like you, and why i would, i don't know you, its all this one big non-realistic dream. how is one to cope? but most of all how is one to get on and move on with her life? and u wanna know what also makes me mad? the fact that i'm the one who always had to make the effort. was it always me who would email first, message first was i just dreaming? was it all a joke on me? cuz it worked pretty damn well, pretty damn well indeed.
you dug this whole, planted the trap and i fell in, and someone help me, i can't climb out.
i'm so confused, i don't know if i still like you, and why i would, i don't know you, its all this one big non-realistic dream. how is one to cope? but most of all how is one to get on and move on with her life? and u wanna know what also makes me mad? the fact that i'm the one who always had to make the effort. was it always me who would email first, message first was i just dreaming? was it all a joke on me? cuz it worked pretty damn well, pretty damn well indeed.
you dug this whole, planted the trap and i fell in, and someone help me, i can't climb out.