it doesnt take a talent to be mean, words can crush things that are unseen...
lame scene~ sat on my bathroom floor, crying and singing jewel, no one was home, candace came and got me, we watched mona lisa smile, and talked, i fell asleep on her hard floor, and it was so painfully uncomfy!
woke up~ ate cereal, went to chruch, it was ok, but then i was thinking about shit, and just started crying , peopkle were nice and stuff about it, lots of hugs. i creid too much, i was shakey and couldnt breathe, stuffs just going really shitty for me lately, i cant stand it. callie left, w/o telling me, so i was stuck, and had to find a new way home, but sam gave me a ride, it was uber nice! i felt so shitty when i got home, i cried, and that made me throw up, which wasnt too good. my sister catrina had e go with her to get her hair fixed. came home, listened to jewel~ pieces of you album!!!! no one called, does that mean no one cares??? hmmm.
*WHY AM I SO SAD?*
my dad is beoing meaner than usuall, and yelling at me more
my mum is taking out her displaced aggression on me
callie, my oldest sister is still ruining my life, i cant stand it!
I FEEL SO LONELY, I MISS OPEOPLE SO MUCH, BUT THEY ARE RIGHT NEXT TO ME, AM I SO DEAD TO THE WORLD, OR ARE THEY ALL JUST SO DISTANT?
i want something better, i dont want to cry anymore, i dont want to be alone, i need to breathe.....
woke up~ ate cereal, went to chruch, it was ok, but then i was thinking about shit, and just started crying , peopkle were nice and stuff about it, lots of hugs. i creid too much, i was shakey and couldnt breathe, stuffs just going really shitty for me lately, i cant stand it. callie left, w/o telling me, so i was stuck, and had to find a new way home, but sam gave me a ride, it was uber nice! i felt so shitty when i got home, i cried, and that made me throw up, which wasnt too good. my sister catrina had e go with her to get her hair fixed. came home, listened to jewel~ pieces of you album!!!! no one called, does that mean no one cares??? hmmm.
*WHY AM I SO SAD?*
my dad is beoing meaner than usuall, and yelling at me more
my mum is taking out her displaced aggression on me
callie, my oldest sister is still ruining my life, i cant stand it!
I FEEL SO LONELY, I MISS OPEOPLE SO MUCH, BUT THEY ARE RIGHT NEXT TO ME, AM I SO DEAD TO THE WORLD, OR ARE THEY ALL JUST SO DISTANT?
i want something better, i dont want to cry anymore, i dont want to be alone, i need to breathe.....